update.....
Hey,
I am still heartbroken....but things are a little better. I have been talking to Brandon alot lately. He tells me he still loves me and promises me that everything will be okay one day and that hes just confused right now. He has came over and spent the night with me the last few nights. So im getting sleep now. And i actually ate something today....not much....just a few bites of a burrito. But thats still a lot more than what i had in the past 2 weeks. I have lost about 6 pounds. I just dont understand god sometimes. Its like he gives you something that you didnt ask for, you really enjoy it.....then when you least expect it he takes it away....?? Is he trying to teach us a lesson?? Fuck i dont know. I hate being this age though. I mean i know its like supposed to be the best time of your life...and sometimes i do feel like that...but other times i think...Gosh i wish i could just get married start a family and start my life. But then again....starting a family and getting married will come with its own set of problems. Oh well....for now im just going to take life one day at a time. Today is August 7, 2005 and thats all im going to worry about for now.
I am still heartbroken....but things are a little better. I have been talking to Brandon alot lately. He tells me he still loves me and promises me that everything will be okay one day and that hes just confused right now. He has came over and spent the night with me the last few nights. So im getting sleep now. And i actually ate something today....not much....just a few bites of a burrito. But thats still a lot more than what i had in the past 2 weeks. I have lost about 6 pounds. I just dont understand god sometimes. Its like he gives you something that you didnt ask for, you really enjoy it.....then when you least expect it he takes it away....?? Is he trying to teach us a lesson?? Fuck i dont know. I hate being this age though. I mean i know its like supposed to be the best time of your life...and sometimes i do feel like that...but other times i think...Gosh i wish i could just get married start a family and start my life. But then again....starting a family and getting married will come with its own set of problems. Oh well....for now im just going to take life one day at a time. Today is August 7, 2005 and thats all im going to worry about for now.