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AverageMelon: i suggest
AverageMelon: getting a leather bound journal
AverageMelon: and going to either starbux or
AverageMelon: a forest
AverageMelon: and writing
AverageMelon: and reading
AverageMelon: with God
AverageMelon: then it gives you undescribably confidence to do whatever you want
It's inevitable, i knew this would happen. by distracting myself with copious numbers of people, i have been able to avoid situations that were left up in the air. and then in doing this, i have further proceeded to leave behind the past and make believe it never existed, only crushing myself little by little. it's come to the point where i think about this situation more than i think about the happy things in my life. i think about what I'M going to do today or how I feel today when really "I" is my personal selfishness. i need to stop worrying, stop complaining, enjoy school and the oppertunities that lie ahead and the people i will meet. God is all that matters, i love him and i'll do what i want. Life is what you make of it, when in all reality, it won't matter in the end, because in the end, heaven will be eternal bliss. what a concept.
i thought i was smart, but school makes me feel extremely dumb. i'm never going to be the best in my class because i always have THE best in my classes. i will never live up to the standards laid out in front of me if i keep up that attitude.
when i was with brian and chad today, they were playing guitar and i was just laying on the dock staring up at the stars and brian asked me if i could be any star which one would i be. i said the one that was faint and was excluded from the other custer of stars... i dont know if thats the one i would really chose though.
im going to start taking polaroids of all my friends and tie yarn through them and hang it on the border of my room.. that'll make me happy.
ya finals are over, ya its a new semester but i'm still stressed because nothing stops, the fast pace just continues to hieghten.
OIFNSGOFINGSDLIFGNMLKDFSGMLKDFMGLID
i love music so much, that and God never stress me out.
live a little.
i need to do some major changing, bare with me
thanks for sticking around for awhile.
when i say lets hang out.. i dont know if you understand that i really mean it.
AverageMelon: getting a leather bound journal
AverageMelon: and going to either starbux or
AverageMelon: a forest
AverageMelon: and writing
AverageMelon: and reading
AverageMelon: with God
AverageMelon: then it gives you undescribably confidence to do whatever you want
It's inevitable, i knew this would happen. by distracting myself with copious numbers of people, i have been able to avoid situations that were left up in the air. and then in doing this, i have further proceeded to leave behind the past and make believe it never existed, only crushing myself little by little. it's come to the point where i think about this situation more than i think about the happy things in my life. i think about what I'M going to do today or how I feel today when really "I" is my personal selfishness. i need to stop worrying, stop complaining, enjoy school and the oppertunities that lie ahead and the people i will meet. God is all that matters, i love him and i'll do what i want. Life is what you make of it, when in all reality, it won't matter in the end, because in the end, heaven will be eternal bliss. what a concept.
i thought i was smart, but school makes me feel extremely dumb. i'm never going to be the best in my class because i always have THE best in my classes. i will never live up to the standards laid out in front of me if i keep up that attitude.
when i was with brian and chad today, they were playing guitar and i was just laying on the dock staring up at the stars and brian asked me if i could be any star which one would i be. i said the one that was faint and was excluded from the other custer of stars... i dont know if thats the one i would really chose though.
im going to start taking polaroids of all my friends and tie yarn through them and hang it on the border of my room.. that'll make me happy.
ya finals are over, ya its a new semester but i'm still stressed because nothing stops, the fast pace just continues to hieghten.
OIFNSGOFINGSDLIFGNMLKDFSGMLKDFMGLID
i love music so much, that and God never stress me out.
live a little.
i need to do some major changing, bare with me
thanks for sticking around for awhile.
when i say lets hang out.. i dont know if you understand that i really mean it.