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*breaks head against desk*
*pretty miserable* I hate crushes. Goddamnit, that's what I have isn't it? And it doesn't even make sense! Make it go away, make it go away. It's because he's like the only guy I know in RL who I don't have an immediate desire to eliminate. And I don't know any girls who swing my way. *miserable* I don't even want to like anyone, I'm crap girlfriend material. I just want someone to hang out with, go see a movie with, go to Knott's scary farm...a hug that I don't cringe from...
*very miserable* Best Friend is MIA again. Best Friend who is Only Friend. *miserable* I need friends. I need friends who like horror. Friends who I can drag to see cheesy horror movies with me so I don't have to constantly rely on my brothers, who I love dearly but I live with them 24/7 and they have Issues with a Capital I which they talk EVERY day of and it's getting to feel like I'm my family's therapist and hello, forget me? Would LOVE time apart from.
I just really wish this thing with him go away. It's horrid.
damnit.
*force cheer* In other news, I'm trying to get to that Myn/Draco prompt. Lest is being uncooperative and refusing to let me type. *squashes muse*
Is it sad when your closest friends are your imaginary muses?
I'm really not this miserable. Just really feeling it right now. ._.
*pretty miserable* I hate crushes. Goddamnit, that's what I have isn't it? And it doesn't even make sense! Make it go away, make it go away. It's because he's like the only guy I know in RL who I don't have an immediate desire to eliminate. And I don't know any girls who swing my way. *miserable* I don't even want to like anyone, I'm crap girlfriend material. I just want someone to hang out with, go see a movie with, go to Knott's scary farm...a hug that I don't cringe from...
*very miserable* Best Friend is MIA again. Best Friend who is Only Friend. *miserable* I need friends. I need friends who like horror. Friends who I can drag to see cheesy horror movies with me so I don't have to constantly rely on my brothers, who I love dearly but I live with them 24/7 and they have Issues with a Capital I which they talk EVERY day of and it's getting to feel like I'm my family's therapist and hello, forget me? Would LOVE time apart from.
I just really wish this thing with him go away. It's horrid.
damnit.
*force cheer* In other news, I'm trying to get to that Myn/Draco prompt. Lest is being uncooperative and refusing to let me type. *squashes muse*
Is it sad when your closest friends are your imaginary muses?
I'm really not this miserable. Just really feeling it right now. ._.