noooooooooo

[kimmibobimmi]

got back from Arrowhead.
i am so glad that i got to get away for a while.
it felt so nice.
i water skied once.
but it was still fun.
got home yesterday and then i had work so i didnt do anything.
just chilled today and im going to have dinner with my mom.
its just me and my mom for the rest of the week.
i guess that will be pretty fun.
i think im going to kinda miss her.
actually, i miss her so much.
she has been with me since 8th grade.
and its just not the same anymore.
i think i need to give up and stop worrying about it.
she has other friends and even if i dont get along with them, its only cause i want her back.
all it is now is lies.
she is living one huge lie
or if she isnt living it, that is all she tells me.
maybe one day she will figure out that im not stupid and some people do tell me the things that go on.
dont lie to me.
your my best friend and i love you so much.
i wish there was something i could do to show it more.
but i just dont even know how to start a conversation with you anymore.
your not the same person that i have known thru the years.
your someone else.
and someone im not very fond of.
iiiii miiiiiiiiiissssssssss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

fucker