Aaaaarrrrgh!!!
Ok, so I know nobody actually reads the shit that I post on here, so sometimes I don't see the point in doing it. But then I think to myself, and I think, to hell with it, I shall post what the fuck I want to post, whether people care or not.
Anyway...
I'm fucking sick of University, and my life in general. I wish I was a completely different person, I wish I reacted to things in different ways, instead of breaking down in tears everytime I get frustrated. Come on frustration is supposed to bring on a bout of anger, not bloody tears.
It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have an assessed court next week, on one of my assessed crime scenes, which I haven't even finished procssing yet. The sign up sheet is on a first cme first serve basis. There are different days and different times, and there are only so many slots per crime scene (either indoors, outdoors or vehicle) and we have to do the court appearance in front of 4 other students.
Yeah, ok, it's only 4 other students, but when you can't stand up and talk in front of just one or two people, it's a big deal. I had the same problem last year. They called my name,
and I stood up, said no, I can't do it and walked out. I ended up with an F grade for that practical.
I really really really don't want to do this court, and everytime I tell my mum (after she has asked me about it) She isn't interested and acts as if I'm not in the room. Then se goes on about how I'm going in for the wrong job if I can't talk in front of people. Which yeah, maybe I am, but maybe I'm not too.
Anyway...
I'm fucking sick of University, and my life in general. I wish I was a completely different person, I wish I reacted to things in different ways, instead of breaking down in tears everytime I get frustrated. Come on frustration is supposed to bring on a bout of anger, not bloody tears.
It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have an assessed court next week, on one of my assessed crime scenes, which I haven't even finished procssing yet. The sign up sheet is on a first cme first serve basis. There are different days and different times, and there are only so many slots per crime scene (either indoors, outdoors or vehicle) and we have to do the court appearance in front of 4 other students.
Yeah, ok, it's only 4 other students, but when you can't stand up and talk in front of just one or two people, it's a big deal. I had the same problem last year. They called my name,
and I stood up, said no, I can't do it and walked out. I ended up with an F grade for that practical.
I really really really don't want to do this court, and everytime I tell my mum (after she has asked me about it) She isn't interested and acts as if I'm not in the room. Then se goes on about how I'm going in for the wrong job if I can't talk in front of people. Which yeah, maybe I am, but maybe I'm not too.