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Well i guess just recently everything in my life is either school or Josh. I have been volunteering at my school helping teachers out and painting paws on the ground. I practice a lot too. I am working on three different plays right now. Josh is a different story though. I like him a lot and all, but we don't tlak like every two or three days and i dunno. He goes out a lot with his cousin which bothers me because they drink a lot. I don't feel important to him at all. My mom says i'm just being immature and i need to grow up about this. And all of this kills me because i feel like either way i am the only one who really cares. If we are togheter its hurts me because i dont hear from him and i cant reach him very often. And if we are a part it'll hurt me and not him because he will just "go out and getdrunk and find someone to fuck" so he doesnt feel any real pain. Why do i feel so trapped. Life at home is sitll horrible i ened out. And my parents tell me to "grow up"