weirdness
I have been thinking about how weird my family is lately. I do not know anybody else who has a family quite like mine. I have a mom, a dad, an ex-stepmom, an ex-stepdad, an ex-almost-stepdad, two sisters, two half sisters who aren't related to each other, and a half sister's half sister.
The reason I'm bringing this up now is because I had to write an outline about myself in speech. I wrote about my family. My parents divorced when I was five, both got remarried when I was eight and I was a flower girl in both weddings, had new babies within ten months of each other, and re-divorced in the same year. How often does that happen?
I've also been thinking of all of this a lot during the past week- ever since I found out that my mom and Nate broke up. I've gone through three divorces and now the breakup of a two-year engagement. The thing is, I'm used to it all. Isn't that strange?...to be used to divorce?
If none of this had happened to me and I heard it had happened to somebody else, I'd think that the person must be a very unstable mess. I don't think I'm that person. I never thought i was affected by it at all, but I know that's not the case. I still think it's almost weird that I'm so normal (although I'm sure some of you would argue my normalness haha).
Brooke is 20 and is doing nothing with her life. She still lives off my mom and keeps putting off her future. I wouldn't be surprised if she followed in our family's footsteps and ended up having a completely messed up family of her own. Then there's me: trying so hard to end up with a stable life and completely petrified of love and starting a family in fear I'll screw it up. 17 year old Nicole is trying to take her senior year of high school online. She hates school. She doesn't have any good friends like the ones I have found to keep her sane. She lives for the dream of starting a family. You know she won't screw them up. Madalyn and Taylor are already going down each of our paths because their parents are already divorced. These two little girls are both of my sisters, yet not related to each other. This summer, my mom is moving to Pewaukee which means that Madalyn and Taylor will be going to school in the same grade. Madalyn has two sets of half sisters like me, Brooke, and Nicole. That brings me to Savannah- who is she to me? She's not technically a sister- just my half sister's half sister. I won't hardly ever see her. I wonder if I'll consider her a sister when I meet her. I feel bad because Madalyn and Taylor are so young- only in kindergarten, and I feel like I'm missing out on their lives by being away at school and leaving for the summer. But it is so important for me to leave and do this by myself and for myself. My family is SO weird.
I think families in general are SO weird. Most of my friends here have a mom and dad that are still together. This is just crazy to me. A lot of my friends from home don't have that. I didn't even know that happy families that stayed together existed...I guess mainly because I never saw one. Everyone I personally knew well did not stay together. They broke up...or they were miserable. It's just really weird for me to think about.
The reason I'm bringing this up now is because I had to write an outline about myself in speech. I wrote about my family. My parents divorced when I was five, both got remarried when I was eight and I was a flower girl in both weddings, had new babies within ten months of each other, and re-divorced in the same year. How often does that happen?
I've also been thinking of all of this a lot during the past week- ever since I found out that my mom and Nate broke up. I've gone through three divorces and now the breakup of a two-year engagement. The thing is, I'm used to it all. Isn't that strange?...to be used to divorce?
If none of this had happened to me and I heard it had happened to somebody else, I'd think that the person must be a very unstable mess. I don't think I'm that person. I never thought i was affected by it at all, but I know that's not the case. I still think it's almost weird that I'm so normal (although I'm sure some of you would argue my normalness haha).
Brooke is 20 and is doing nothing with her life. She still lives off my mom and keeps putting off her future. I wouldn't be surprised if she followed in our family's footsteps and ended up having a completely messed up family of her own. Then there's me: trying so hard to end up with a stable life and completely petrified of love and starting a family in fear I'll screw it up. 17 year old Nicole is trying to take her senior year of high school online. She hates school. She doesn't have any good friends like the ones I have found to keep her sane. She lives for the dream of starting a family. You know she won't screw them up. Madalyn and Taylor are already going down each of our paths because their parents are already divorced. These two little girls are both of my sisters, yet not related to each other. This summer, my mom is moving to Pewaukee which means that Madalyn and Taylor will be going to school in the same grade. Madalyn has two sets of half sisters like me, Brooke, and Nicole. That brings me to Savannah- who is she to me? She's not technically a sister- just my half sister's half sister. I won't hardly ever see her. I wonder if I'll consider her a sister when I meet her. I feel bad because Madalyn and Taylor are so young- only in kindergarten, and I feel like I'm missing out on their lives by being away at school and leaving for the summer. But it is so important for me to leave and do this by myself and for myself. My family is SO weird.
I think families in general are SO weird. Most of my friends here have a mom and dad that are still together. This is just crazy to me. A lot of my friends from home don't have that. I didn't even know that happy families that stayed together existed...I guess mainly because I never saw one. Everyone I personally knew well did not stay together. They broke up...or they were miserable. It's just really weird for me to think about.