For 5 minutes today I forgot I was me and I was happy...
I went shopping with my mom. She needed some work clothes and I had nothing to do so I offered to go with her.
We walked through Marshall Fields and the swim suits were on sale so my mom wanted to look. I saw the swim suit that I had been eying since spring and my mom made me try it on.
Really I didn't want to but my mom pretty much through me in the dressing room and forced me to try it on. Wow! I look like I had breasts. That suit is my new friend. I didn't buy it but I put it on hold. Yes, I want a new suit (my mom would be buying it for me because she rocks) but I rarely go to the beach...even though everyday I think about I want to go.
I found really cute underwear that I am going to buy too. I have to go to another store though because they didn't have my size.
I felt really cute for all of 5 minutes. I didn't even feel like me. It was a nice break from reality.
After shopping I came home and sadly ate my entire bag of goldfish. I am trying to lose some weight and try and workout more. I am in shape and all but I am not even as close to what I was when I was in cheerleading. I miss weighting 98 pounds and doing backflips.
Tomorrow I am going to start me Diet/Weight loss program. I am thinking that will help me with what I have and will be going through within the next few weeks. It will be something that I can focus on. Even though it really sucks doing all that alone I still want to do it.
Unless........
There is someone who would want to workout with me. I'm not talking about going to the gym or anything (my lack of funds doesn't permit me to join) I was thinking like going for a run. Doing some rollarblading somewhere without hills because I am the worst rollarblader EVER. I mean going on walks and someone to do my stretches with. Its just nice to be able to talk to someone while your doing it. It makes the time go by faster too.
Anyways, I think I might go and watch Old School or Office Space. I don't know. I need to do something.
We walked through Marshall Fields and the swim suits were on sale so my mom wanted to look. I saw the swim suit that I had been eying since spring and my mom made me try it on.
Really I didn't want to but my mom pretty much through me in the dressing room and forced me to try it on. Wow! I look like I had breasts. That suit is my new friend. I didn't buy it but I put it on hold. Yes, I want a new suit (my mom would be buying it for me because she rocks) but I rarely go to the beach...even though everyday I think about I want to go.
I found really cute underwear that I am going to buy too. I have to go to another store though because they didn't have my size.
I felt really cute for all of 5 minutes. I didn't even feel like me. It was a nice break from reality.
After shopping I came home and sadly ate my entire bag of goldfish. I am trying to lose some weight and try and workout more. I am in shape and all but I am not even as close to what I was when I was in cheerleading. I miss weighting 98 pounds and doing backflips.
Tomorrow I am going to start me Diet/Weight loss program. I am thinking that will help me with what I have and will be going through within the next few weeks. It will be something that I can focus on. Even though it really sucks doing all that alone I still want to do it.
Unless........
There is someone who would want to workout with me. I'm not talking about going to the gym or anything (my lack of funds doesn't permit me to join) I was thinking like going for a run. Doing some rollarblading somewhere without hills because I am the worst rollarblader EVER. I mean going on walks and someone to do my stretches with. Its just nice to be able to talk to someone while your doing it. It makes the time go by faster too.
Anyways, I think I might go and watch Old School or Office Space. I don't know. I need to do something.