Excitement has returned
(Cross posted from A Gentlewoman's Blog: http://kimiko1.com/blog/2015/12/excitement-has-returned/)
I’m excited again, and it isn’t for anything I’ve been making, but in finally realizing that I’ve got a path forward again.
I’m not sure I want to post about it here, partly because I don’t want to jinx things. It will take time to develop the skills I need, but I need to improve some skills, better understand other skills, and take various classes to learn what it is I need to learn. It is going to take time, but really that’s all we have in life is time. So, I could use it to play video games, watch what’s going on in Facebook or on TV, or I could spend it doing something productive for my future.
And that’s why I’m excited, as my mind has been generating plans to get me to this new destination. But the key to this excitement was realizing I had to accept who I was at this point in life, and that is…
I AM AN ARTIST.
There, I said it. It has been a long time in coming, this acceptance of who I am. How long? Well, until recently, like in today, my Facebook page has said that I was a Domestic Goddess. Not really. I’m not that great at all things domestic. That is not what really defines me. But it was better than former bookkeeper, or degreed accountant. Yes, I’ve been that, have that, but it is not me. And until recently, I was okay with that mask.
[Image found at LinkedIn site (click image to view)]
But the path I’ve been on for many years now was/is at odds with all of that. I wasn’t willing to admit I am an artist, until a few nights ago I had a dream. In that dream I looked around at a wide variety of groups that had a variety of skills and types, from students to mathematicians, to business types, to others I once was a part of. I did not belong in any of those groups, and it made me feel a little lonely. I was my own person, and it made me sad, until some redheaded woman asked if I wanted to join her group of other redheaded women. I said sure, because it would be nice to sit with other folks while I had my meal, to share in what they were doing. And they were creative types, doing various art forms. and they accepted me without question. And I realized as the dream faded away to the morning alarm clock, that I was fine, just sitting there with them, accepted as one of their own, even though I am no redhead.
And so the past few days, I’ve come around to realizing I’m fine, I’m creative, and that is a good thing. And I’m a creative that has a plan for sharing my creative side with others in the coming year. It is time. It is actually past time, but better to start now than to not start at all. And actually, there are others on this path, too, who may or may not be women or redheads.
So, I’m now on a more interesting path, and I will be sharing aspects of that path. First up, will be learning how to make a proper sewing moulage (\mü-ˈläzh\) from a Kenneth D. King CD book of that title, which I just ordered today. I’m doing this for myself and for my family. Then dress forms, learning proper fitting techniques (have some books, getting another, and practicing what I learn), and then back to making new and better patterns for myself, and for others. Because that is my end goal, to make patterns for others. But more on that much later. I gotta relearn how to crawl before I go out dancing again.
Uncategorized,
(Cross posted from A Gentlewoman's Blog: http://kimiko1.com/blog/2015/12/excitement-has-returned/. Comments can be posted here or there.)
I’m excited again, and it isn’t for anything I’ve been making, but in finally realizing that I’ve got a path forward again.
I’m not sure I want to post about it here, partly because I don’t want to jinx things. It will take time to develop the skills I need, but I need to improve some skills, better understand other skills, and take various classes to learn what it is I need to learn. It is going to take time, but really that’s all we have in life is time. So, I could use it to play video games, watch what’s going on in Facebook or on TV, or I could spend it doing something productive for my future.
And that’s why I’m excited, as my mind has been generating plans to get me to this new destination. But the key to this excitement was realizing I had to accept who I was at this point in life, and that is…
I AM AN ARTIST.
There, I said it. It has been a long time in coming, this acceptance of who I am. How long? Well, until recently, like in today, my Facebook page has said that I was a Domestic Goddess. Not really. I’m not that great at all things domestic. That is not what really defines me. But it was better than former bookkeeper, or degreed accountant. Yes, I’ve been that, have that, but it is not me. And until recently, I was okay with that mask.
[Image found at LinkedIn site (click image to view)]
But the path I’ve been on for many years now was/is at odds with all of that. I wasn’t willing to admit I am an artist, until a few nights ago I had a dream. In that dream I looked around at a wide variety of groups that had a variety of skills and types, from students to mathematicians, to business types, to others I once was a part of. I did not belong in any of those groups, and it made me feel a little lonely. I was my own person, and it made me sad, until some redheaded woman asked if I wanted to join her group of other redheaded women. I said sure, because it would be nice to sit with other folks while I had my meal, to share in what they were doing. And they were creative types, doing various art forms. and they accepted me without question. And I realized as the dream faded away to the morning alarm clock, that I was fine, just sitting there with them, accepted as one of their own, even though I am no redhead.
And so the past few days, I’ve come around to realizing I’m fine, I’m creative, and that is a good thing. And I’m a creative that has a plan for sharing my creative side with others in the coming year. It is time. It is actually past time, but better to start now than to not start at all. And actually, there are others on this path, too, who may or may not be women or redheads.
So, I’m now on a more interesting path, and I will be sharing aspects of that path. First up, will be learning how to make a proper sewing moulage (\mü-ˈläzh\) from a Kenneth D. King CD book of that title, which I just ordered today. I’m doing this for myself and for my family. Then dress forms, learning proper fitting techniques (have some books, getting another, and practicing what I learn), and then back to making new and better patterns for myself, and for others. Because that is my end goal, to make patterns for others. But more on that much later. I gotta relearn how to crawl before I go out dancing again.
Uncategorized,
(Cross posted from A Gentlewoman's Blog: http://kimiko1.com/blog/2015/12/excitement-has-returned/. Comments can be posted here or there.)