I'm falling deeper.
I'm falling deeper and deeper for him all over again. <3 It's like deja vu. I know I shouldn't be talking to him again. But it's hard how he acts. We're two opposites. But opposites attract right ? How come these things never work out. He likes me I don't like him. I like him he doesn't show any interest anymore. ]x Maybe I should keep trying. Having this on and off "relationship" with him ... it just makes it harder to let go. I have a lot of hope that we'll keep talking but then sometimes I feel like there's no chance left of having him for my own.
Spending Wednesday with him was one of the perfect days in the longest time ever. I loved it. Every second. I wouldn't want it any other way. I say I'm over it but really .. I'm not. It's like I'm stuck in a box ... no way out ... it just won't let me walk away. I'm in deep.
Family .. it's been hard. I have a disfunctional family. Something is always wrong.
I guess mine & Janelle's life are meant to be fucked like this. We're both going to hell.
I can't wait until my brother comes back for my birthday. 14 more days! I'm totally excited I miss him so much.
Spending Wednesday with him was one of the perfect days in the longest time ever. I loved it. Every second. I wouldn't want it any other way. I say I'm over it but really .. I'm not. It's like I'm stuck in a box ... no way out ... it just won't let me walk away. I'm in deep.
Family .. it's been hard. I have a disfunctional family. Something is always wrong.
I guess mine & Janelle's life are meant to be fucked like this. We're both going to hell.
I can't wait until my brother comes back for my birthday. 14 more days! I'm totally excited I miss him so much.