in which Free-chan is feeling like shit
god.
..just fucking shit. God just doesn't like me very much, does he? I haven't been this emotional ina while. I'm not even on my period right now, and not about to start it in the future.
I don't quite understand. Life can be so unfair. Or maybe I'm just jealous of her. Either way, today has royally sucked.
Recently I lost my brand new phone. Someone stole it, of course. After I cried and told my dad that I would take care of it. Well, that turned out to be a horrible failure, and as a result, my brother is getting a Razor phone (the one that I wasn't aloud to have) and I get his old phone.
Tomorrow we have to go see my grandparents, even though I really don't want to. My grandma is boring..and she and my mom have a bad relationship, since mom was the 'outcast', if you will, of the family. She was the last one born, and my grandma had had enough of children. I remember how sad my mom was when she told me that. And because of it, I have never particularily enjoyed the company of my grandmother.
My mentally handicapped cousin will be there too, and I don't want to loose my patience with her because I'm in such a foul mood right now. It doesn't seem very fair to her right now, but tomorrow it will seem just right to explode on her and let her take the anger I got on me.
My brother seriously makes me wonder if he's mentally insane in the head. I'm tired of him asking me for things when I'm busy doing something. While I'm playing a game, he wants to play. While I'm eating, he wants what I'm eating. He drops his legos everywhere, and I step on them.
Then to top the cake with a moldy strawberry, I get online tonight and I try to talk to my friends about how I'm feeling. They're my friends, right?
Tonight was a little different. There's one person on my head that I can think of that has problems with her parents. Well, I thought she'd understand.
Of course she didn't. "..is that all that's bothering you? :o" Like she was trying to be funny. It's not funny at all, I'm scared and I want them to come home so I know that they're safe and well. And so that I don't have to sit here and cry and worry about them so fucking much.
This is probably extremely selfish of me, but out of the laughs generated by that, I was extremely hurt. A long time ago, she was there for me when my mom went into surgery. Did that wear off or something? An expiration date, maybe? I didn't know.
Right now I can truthfully accept my self generated nighname: Emo toes.
Because right now, I feel like I'm all by myself.
..just fucking shit. God just doesn't like me very much, does he? I haven't been this emotional ina while. I'm not even on my period right now, and not about to start it in the future.
I don't quite understand. Life can be so unfair. Or maybe I'm just jealous of her. Either way, today has royally sucked.
Recently I lost my brand new phone. Someone stole it, of course. After I cried and told my dad that I would take care of it. Well, that turned out to be a horrible failure, and as a result, my brother is getting a Razor phone (the one that I wasn't aloud to have) and I get his old phone.
Tomorrow we have to go see my grandparents, even though I really don't want to. My grandma is boring..and she and my mom have a bad relationship, since mom was the 'outcast', if you will, of the family. She was the last one born, and my grandma had had enough of children. I remember how sad my mom was when she told me that. And because of it, I have never particularily enjoyed the company of my grandmother.
My mentally handicapped cousin will be there too, and I don't want to loose my patience with her because I'm in such a foul mood right now. It doesn't seem very fair to her right now, but tomorrow it will seem just right to explode on her and let her take the anger I got on me.
My brother seriously makes me wonder if he's mentally insane in the head. I'm tired of him asking me for things when I'm busy doing something. While I'm playing a game, he wants to play. While I'm eating, he wants what I'm eating. He drops his legos everywhere, and I step on them.
Then to top the cake with a moldy strawberry, I get online tonight and I try to talk to my friends about how I'm feeling. They're my friends, right?
Tonight was a little different. There's one person on my head that I can think of that has problems with her parents. Well, I thought she'd understand.
Of course she didn't. "..is that all that's bothering you? :o" Like she was trying to be funny. It's not funny at all, I'm scared and I want them to come home so I know that they're safe and well. And so that I don't have to sit here and cry and worry about them so fucking much.
This is probably extremely selfish of me, but out of the laughs generated by that, I was extremely hurt. A long time ago, she was there for me when my mom went into surgery. Did that wear off or something? An expiration date, maybe? I didn't know.
Right now I can truthfully accept my self generated nighname: Emo toes.
Because right now, I feel like I'm all by myself.