I'm back!
I haven't updated or written anything in a long time.
Here is why
Well, in April (around the time I stopped writing), I was sexually assaulted by someone I considered myself friends with at school. I won't go into details about it really, but it did mess me up for awhile.
I had stopped eating for a few days, lost sleep and in June considered suicide. I couldn't shake the feeling of what happened, the reality of it. I told no one who could do anything. I didn't report it. When he would text me, he made it seem as if I wanted it, and I believed him. I believed that I must have done something for him to do that to me. I didn't though, I realize. But I still can't believe it.
If any of you have been following the story Temptations, you know that Kevin is being molested and raped. I couldn't bring myself to continue writing about it. Everytime I tried, I had this horrible mental break down and completely shut off, closing out the world and people around me.
Some friends had caught onto my sucide attempt when I left them a strange goodbye on skype; the cops were then called and I completely lost it. I confessed to my family what had happened but continued to refuse to say his name and press charges. It had been too late by then anyways.
I have come a long way from those few months with very strong support of my closest friends and my sister. I'm better; seeing him doesn't make me feel dirty or want to die anymore. I'm going to try and come back to writing.
Thank you all for your patience and for those who kept checking my page for updates and messaging me. It really did mean a lot.