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So yesterday i was taking a nap, and my dad called me to come out of my room for a minute. So i was kinda pissed, but i got up and wemt out to my balcony. Then, he tells me that my Uncle John (well, it is actually his uncle, but we all just called him uncle so.) that he died early that day at 1 (this is the 4th FYI) It was crazy to think that he was gone. Granted, i wasnt super close w/ him, but i saw him about once a month at my great-grandma's house and was knew him well, and now its weird to think that he won't be there. I've never known anyone personally to die, and i have never been to a funeral either. Im kinda freaked out about going, but no matter what i am going.
Anyway, this got me thinking. I know that death is a natural part of life and everything, but i'm so scared to die, especially right now. Yeah, personally i believe in God and Heaven and everything, but i still think death is one of the scariest things. I'm only 16, so unless something unexpected happens or God has other plans, i don't imagine myself dying soo (granted i could very well die on my way to Katies tonight, who knows?) So, in general, i probley shouldnt think about it so much, or at least so in depth, but i do. Maybe im only one of few who is terrified , or maybe alot of people do, iunno. But yeah, that's just what i've been thinking about and how much death can suck.
I guess on a better note, i get to go to katie's tonight until thursday. We'll have a blast, like alwyas. Wed. afternoon, kara, val, and steph may all come down too so it will crazy. I need to go shower though, considering i just woke up less then an hour ago. Later
Anyway, this got me thinking. I know that death is a natural part of life and everything, but i'm so scared to die, especially right now. Yeah, personally i believe in God and Heaven and everything, but i still think death is one of the scariest things. I'm only 16, so unless something unexpected happens or God has other plans, i don't imagine myself dying soo (granted i could very well die on my way to Katies tonight, who knows?) So, in general, i probley shouldnt think about it so much, or at least so in depth, but i do. Maybe im only one of few who is terrified , or maybe alot of people do, iunno. But yeah, that's just what i've been thinking about and how much death can suck.
I guess on a better note, i get to go to katie's tonight until thursday. We'll have a blast, like alwyas. Wed. afternoon, kara, val, and steph may all come down too so it will crazy. I need to go shower though, considering i just woke up less then an hour ago. Later