Its 3 am I must be lonely

Nov 18, 2004 03:00

Its 3:00 in the morning and i feel...awake. I dont want sleep and sleep doesnt want me. I dont want to do anything. i want it to be morning so that i can go to work and get on with my day. I hate work. But it beats sitting here, starring at my computer screen all night. my eyes hurt. maybe i should just lay in my bed and close them and pretend to sleep. I'm lonely. I hate sleeping all day and being up all night. I HATE IT! Why cant i just be normal? My body must really hate me right now. My life is so cluttered that I cant listen to it. It would probably tell me to get my ass in bed right now...but i'm not listening because i have three papers to write. a math exam on friday. I have to be to my grandparent house by 9:00 am so that my mom can take my car to work because her rental car broke down on her. then i have to hope that she can make it home by 5, otherwise i wont be going to my night class tomorrow. I'm frustrated. Why cant my mom be a responsible adult? Why does she have to return her car before she has a chance to look at new ones and buy a new one so she doesnt have to depend on me to loan her my car whenever she needs it. Why cant i get my shit together and start getting things done. If I had planned ahead, these papers would already be written and I could relax. my head hurts. I think its from lack of sleep. I havent been sleeping at all lately. at least i'm not sleeping through my classes anymore. haha. thats funny. What is more important sleep? or class? well...sleep is free and class cost me $1,800 this semester. so i'm going to go with class. Water....water usually helps when i have headaches. I'm going to drink some water and lay in my bed until the alarm goes off.
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