sigh
I am stuck. I wish you wouldn't do that, i have no control over what you do. You wanted to take a big step that would have helped it all if you wanted to help your self enough, i new you'd get off work the next morning and say no against it again. Do i sit back and blind my self to what you are doing, what you may think is not a lot, yes it could be worse, its still bad, its still to much. You know it, I know it, a monkey would know it. Its only not seen if you try to fool your self. I am in love with you, but I HATE that you do that. I tolerate your cranky moods, I tolerate that binge drinking, I don't like the daily drinking, but that i cannot ignore. I hope you have one of those revelations where you wake up one day look your self in the mirror and stop, cause you and I both know its possible. You just need to want it bad enough. It kills me, I care so much, so do I just ignore it and look away, because i know confrontation about it isn't working.