One Step Closer to the Edge
Okay, a little overdramatic but what else would you expect from me? I realized today that I am incredibly on edge. Not work wise. I can handle that, no problems. Just, I don't know, if I said atmosphere, would it make sense to you?
I am in much need of a vacation. Not even a full 7 day vacay. A 2 day will do. Parker is happy to oblige. Thank you, kind sir. I just need to getaway from everything and just relax. Be worry-free for once in my life. Or as close as I'll ever get to worry-free.
I'm not angry with anyone. I just feel that little things have been festering. When I fester, I get touchy. When I get touchy, I say things that I may regret. I don't want to hurt my friensd. They are all I have right now. I just need a chance to figure out what's going on in my head.
I take that back. I guess I am angry at a couple of people. More hurt than anything. I wish I could move on from it, too. Damn my emotional attachment! The more I try to figure them out, the more I think I may burst a blood vessel. I've gotten better about it, though. Those people just rate well on my People Who Suck List. Not a good list to rate highly on, obviously.
This week, I am going to try something new; Keep to myself. I am just so afraid that I am going to overreact and hurt someone that I really care about. So I keep to myself until I take my much needed vacay and gather my thoughts and reassociate myself with . . . myself.
This entire blog makes me feel psychosomatic . . .
I am in much need of a vacation. Not even a full 7 day vacay. A 2 day will do. Parker is happy to oblige. Thank you, kind sir. I just need to getaway from everything and just relax. Be worry-free for once in my life. Or as close as I'll ever get to worry-free.
I'm not angry with anyone. I just feel that little things have been festering. When I fester, I get touchy. When I get touchy, I say things that I may regret. I don't want to hurt my friensd. They are all I have right now. I just need a chance to figure out what's going on in my head.
I take that back. I guess I am angry at a couple of people. More hurt than anything. I wish I could move on from it, too. Damn my emotional attachment! The more I try to figure them out, the more I think I may burst a blood vessel. I've gotten better about it, though. Those people just rate well on my People Who Suck List. Not a good list to rate highly on, obviously.
This week, I am going to try something new; Keep to myself. I am just so afraid that I am going to overreact and hurt someone that I really care about. So I keep to myself until I take my much needed vacay and gather my thoughts and reassociate myself with . . . myself.
This entire blog makes me feel psychosomatic . . .