Confused
Well It's been 3 days since I told Bruce that we needed to slow down. I didn't really mean it he just has me so messed up right now that I don't know what to do. We had a fallen out cause he's still scared to have Brucie around me. I'm ok with taking it slow with him. What I'm not ok with is being introduced as a friend of the family. I didn't know his family. So I wish he would stop introducing me that way. I know it's going to take time for him to get use to saying that I'm his girlfriend and I'm gonna work real hard on not getting so upset over it. Anyways! Back to the other night. He said he didn't want to confuse Brucie, well the next day after he said that he brought Brucie to my work to show me his new jeep. We'll talk about that in a minute. I didn't know how to act. Why would you bring your son who you just said would get confuse to my work when all he knows me as is Andrew's mom. I had no clue how to act. I was shaking. I couldn't do what I would have done if he wasn't there. Bruce has come so far since the storm. And I'm very happy and proud of him. So it's not Brucie who is confused it's me. I have been with Bruce for 7 months now. I have been there for his good times and bad. I stayed with him in his fema trailer, took him where ever he needed to go and now he is in his fine new redone house has a new jeep and hasn't called me one time this weekend. I have called 3 times but no answer. I feel like he used me. Now that he has all of this it's like he don't need me anymore. It hurts real bad. I may just be reading it wrong but I wrote him a letter last night and went and put it on his jeep this morning explaining how I feel and he still hasn't called. So that just makes me wonder even more. I hate that about me I think way to much. I don't know what to do. I fell in love again and now I feel like it's going to end up just like the last guy I fell in love with. God I hope not. I did a lot of praying yesterday in church. I hope that he is hearing me cry out to him. Anyways! I have to go feed my son and then we are going to the park at about 3:30. I guess I will write in here later. Thanks for listening to my crazy life.