My life
SO THIS IS MY FIRST ENTRY. I WROTE IN THIS THING A LONG TIME AGO,BUT NOW I HAVE A HELL OF A LOT MORE GOING ON IN MY LIFE SO I THOUGHT THAT I WOULD ERASE ALL THE OTHER STUFF AND START NEW. I GUESS I NEED TO START FROM THE BEGINNING. ON JUNE 18 I MET A GUY NAMED BRUCE. WE MET AT MY SISTERS B-DAY PARTY. I WAS PRETTY WAISTED, BUT THAT'S BESIDE THE POINT. I GOT INTO A BIG FIGHT WITH MY SONS DAD. AND HE WAS THERE. MAKING IT ALL BETTER. NO WE DIDN'T HAVE SEX. HE JUST SAID ALL THE RIGHT WORDS. HE SAID I KNOW WHAT YOUR GOING THROUGH. HE HAS A LITTLE BOY AND HIM AND HIS X-WIFE DON'T GET A LONG EITHER. TURNS OUT HE DID KNOW A LITTLE OF WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH. EXCEPT TIMMY AND I HAVE THIS LOVE HATE RELATIONSHIP. ONE MINIUTE WE ARE FRIENDS THE NEXT WE HATE EACH OTHER. ONE DAY WE'LL GET IT RIGHT. LOL. HOPEFULLY. BRUCE AND HIS THEY JUST STRAIGHT UP STILL HATE EACH OTHER. HE SAYS HE'LL NEVER BE FRIENDS WITH HER. I TOLD HIM TO GIVE IT TIME. ANYWAY! SO BACK TO HIM AND I. AFTER THE PARTY HE GOT MY NUMBER OFF MY CASE FILE AND CALLED ME THAT TUESDAY. I WAS SO NERVOUS. NOT SURE Y BUT I WAS. BOUT THE CASE FILE HE WAS MY DETCTIVE WHEN MY CAR GOT BROKE INTO. FUNNY HOW THINGS HAPPEN. THE FIRST DAY I GOT TO TEXAS MY MOM CALLS AND SAYS YOUR DETTECTIVE BROUGHT YOUR JOURNAL HOME. SHE SAID YOU NEED TO HOOK UP WITH HIM HE'S CUTE. LOL BACK THEN HE WAS MARRIED. SO AFTER HE CALLED THAT TUESDAY WE DIDN'T TALK FOR I THINK TWO DAYS THEN AFTER THAT WE TALKED EVERYDAY. WE HAD A GETTOGHTER AT MY SISTERS HOUSE ON JULY 8TH. THAT WAS A GREAT NIGHT. HE CRASHED THERE THAT NIGHT CAUSE WE GOT DRUNK. SO HE DIDN'T DRIVE ALL THE WAY HOME. THE NEXT MORNING I BROUGHT HIM HOME IT WAS SO WEIRED. I HAVE NEVER HAD A GUY STAY THE NIGHT WITH ME BEFORE. YEAH I KNOW I HAVE A KID AND I HAVEN'T HAD A GUY STAY. PRETTY STUPID. ANYWAYS! DAYS KEPT PASSING AND WE WENT ON A DATE TO SIXFLAGGS. IT WAS AWSOME. HE MADE ME GET ON STUFF I DON'T RIDE BUT I DID IT FOR HIM. SO BY NOW WE HAVE SPENT ALMOST EVERYDAY TOGETHER. IT HAS BEEN AWSOME. A LOT CHANGED WHEN ANDREW CAME HOME CAUSE I WOULDN'T LET HIM MEET HIM. I DIDN'T WANT ANDREW TO MEET HIM TILL I KNEW WHATS UP. SO WE STARTED TAKING THE BOYS TO THE PARK TO SEE HOW THEY WOULD PLAY TOGETHER. THEY DID GREAT. WE ALL PLAYED TOGETHER. WE DIDN'T LET THE BOYS KNOW THAT BRUCE AND I WERE TALKING. WE JUST WANTED TO SEE HOW THEY GOT ALONG. THEN CAME KATRINA. THAT MESSED EVERYTHING UP. BRUCE'S HOUSE GOT MESSED UP AND MY WHOLE FAMILY LOST EVERYTHING. SUCKED. BRUCIE HAD TO GO TO NEW YORK WHERE HE IS NOW. HE HAS BEEN THERE SINCE SEPTEMBER THE 4TH. BRUCE MISSES HIM SO MUCH. BRUCE IS GOING TO SEE HIM WEDNESDAY. AND AS SOON AS HIS HOUSE IS DONE HE CAN COME HOME AND HOPEFULLY WE CAN ALL START AGAIN AT THE PARK. I'M READY FOR THINGS TO BE NORMAL. MY MOM IS DOING THE SAME SHIT WITH BRUCE AND I AS SHE DID WITH TIMMY AND I AND IT SUCKS. SHE HATES BRUCE SO WE ARE HAVING TO SNEAK AROUND. I FEEL LIKE I AM 15 AGAIN. I'M ALMOST 22 AND SHE IS STILL TRYING TO CONTROL ME. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. I AM TRYING TO SAVE ALL I CAN SO I CAN GET OUT. MY LIFE IS SO MESSED UP. BUT I AM JUST TRYING TO KEEP IT ALL TOGETHER AND HAVE FAITH. I WENT TO SEE HIM LAST NIGHT AND WE WERE LAYING THERE AND I TOLD HIM THAT I LOVED HIM. I HAVE SAID IT TO HIM BEFORE BUT LAST NIGHT WHEN I TOLD HIM I FELT SOMETHING DIOFFERENT. I'M NOT SURE WHAT IT WAS. HERE LATELY I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO PUSH HIM AWAY CAUSE I HAVE FALLEN SO HARD FOR HIM I'M SO SCARED THAT HE'S GOING TO HURT ME. HE HAS A ROOMMATE AND HE ALWAYS HAS DIFFERENT GIRLS OVER AND I'M SO SCARED THAT HE IS GOING TO DO SOMETHING WITH ONE OF THEM. I AM TRYING SO HARD TO TRUST HIM BUT IT'S HARD TO TRUST A GUY. I GUESS ALL I CAN DO IS HAVE FAITH. SO THIS IS WHERE I AM IN MY LIFE DEALING WITH MY MOM AND A GUY I HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH. ALWAYS DRAMA. ON A GOOD NOTE MY DADS SIDE OF THE FAMILY AND ANDREW AND I LEAVE WEDNESDAY FOR DISNEY WORLD. I CAN'T WAIT. IT IS GOING TO BE A BLAST. FOR NOW I HAVE TO GO GET MY BABY AND GO TO BED. I'M TIRED. WORK IS KILLIN ME. I'LL KEEP THIS THING UPDATED AS MUCH AS I CAN. HAPPY THANKSGIVING.