Thanks
My thanks to those of you who commented with support and sympathy on my last post; I really do appreciate it. I've felt so alone in this, for so very long; it's good to know there are still people out there who care.
I know, I could have realized that a lot sooner; could have gotten people's support if I'd just opened up about my marriage problems years ago. But part of the reason I didn't tell anybody about all this until now was because I was so -ashamed-. For a very long time I felt ashamed and guilty, because Andrew was persistent in blaming all his problems--and subsequently, our marital troubles--on me; he insisted that I was the cause of his misery, because i was consistently failing him as a wife and partner. There will be more later, in the 'Messy Details' post I'm almost done writing; I've been working on it for the last few weeks, writing out what happened, getting my thoughts in order (getting a touch of catharsis out of it too.)
I know, I could have realized that a lot sooner; could have gotten people's support if I'd just opened up about my marriage problems years ago. But part of the reason I didn't tell anybody about all this until now was because I was so -ashamed-. For a very long time I felt ashamed and guilty, because Andrew was persistent in blaming all his problems--and subsequently, our marital troubles--on me; he insisted that I was the cause of his misery, because i was consistently failing him as a wife and partner. There will be more later, in the 'Messy Details' post I'm almost done writing; I've been working on it for the last few weeks, writing out what happened, getting my thoughts in order (getting a touch of catharsis out of it too.)