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it's wednesday. already. i don't think it's a psychological thing but just reality sinking in that my freedom is really ebbing away. i have so much more to study and absorb i feel inferior on so many levels, it's just me being me and me being vulnerable. as much as i prepare for the worst nothing matches up, everything will probably unravel in mysterious ways and i just hope i handle things in a at least decent manner. preparing myself mentally is already tortorous (just saying), i'm just scared :( *cuddles in bed with a gastronomy book in hand*