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i'm probably going to say "fuck" a lot...
i'm starting to wonder if it's me. do i emit something that makes boys (no, you are not men) feel the need to walk all over my heart? i know that i am in no way perfect, especially when it comes to relationships, but god dammit i fucking try. and i guess that's all i want in return. effort and honesty. and not just honesty in the sense of not lying to me (duh), but honesty about how you feel. if you love me, fucking say it. and if you don't love me or you don't like me, fucking say it. no time like the present people! it will save us both a lot of time, energy and heartache.
i'm trying so hard to not care and to just go with the flow and let things happen the way they are going to happen, but i'm getting really fucking tired of investing time and feelings into things and then walking away with jack shit. plus, i'm so over crying. haven't i had my fill in the last two years?
yes, i want to get married. someday. and yes, i want to have babies. someday. SOMEDAY. not tomorrow, not next year. right now, all i want is a boy who calls me texts me (let's get with the times now) when he says he will, acts like and actually wants to hang out with me, tells me how he feels (good or bad) and appreciates me for the things i do. IT'S NOT THAT HARD.
i need an awesome boyfriend to compliment my awesome girlfriend-ness. GGGAAAHHHHH.
did i really just rant about wanting a boyfriend? I AM SO LAME.
i'm starting to wonder if it's me. do i emit something that makes boys (no, you are not men) feel the need to walk all over my heart? i know that i am in no way perfect, especially when it comes to relationships, but god dammit i fucking try. and i guess that's all i want in return. effort and honesty. and not just honesty in the sense of not lying to me (duh), but honesty about how you feel. if you love me, fucking say it. and if you don't love me or you don't like me, fucking say it. no time like the present people! it will save us both a lot of time, energy and heartache.
i'm trying so hard to not care and to just go with the flow and let things happen the way they are going to happen, but i'm getting really fucking tired of investing time and feelings into things and then walking away with jack shit. plus, i'm so over crying. haven't i had my fill in the last two years?
yes, i want to get married. someday. and yes, i want to have babies. someday. SOMEDAY. not tomorrow, not next year. right now, all i want is a boy who calls me texts me (let's get with the times now) when he says he will, acts like and actually wants to hang out with me, tells me how he feels (good or bad) and appreciates me for the things i do. IT'S NOT THAT HARD.
i need an awesome boyfriend to compliment my awesome girlfriend-ness. GGGAAAHHHHH.
did i really just rant about wanting a boyfriend? I AM SO LAME.