trying to understand
A couple of entries ago I mentioned that my grandmother was really sick. She passed away yesterday, at 9.05 in the morning. I've never lost a family member [or someone i knew] before; it feels... I don't know how to explain it really. Weird. She was there one day and the next she's not. It's hard to understand that she doesn't exist anymore. Really hard.
We knew it was really bad... the doctors had even told my stepdad this Friday that she might not make it over the weekend... and the next day... she was gone.
She had more or less given up I guess. Ever since she was diagnosed with cancer, about two months ago, she didn't really eat that much... she barley ate anything at all to be exact. She was so tiny, she lost her hair, her teeth... and she was in pain the last few days. And when the stepdad visited her on Friday she didn't even know who he was. :(
They gave her something for the pain... so at least it feels good to know that she just fell asleep. She wasn't in pain and she won't be in pain anymore.
I didn't see her after she was diagnosed with cancer. She didn't want any of the 'kids' to see her. Maybe it was for the best? We'll forever remember the grandmother we've always known and not the grandmother who was sick... and weak. It might sound weird but it sort of feels better this way.
I'll always miss her.
Rest in peace, nan <33
We knew it was really bad... the doctors had even told my stepdad this Friday that she might not make it over the weekend... and the next day... she was gone.
She had more or less given up I guess. Ever since she was diagnosed with cancer, about two months ago, she didn't really eat that much... she barley ate anything at all to be exact. She was so tiny, she lost her hair, her teeth... and she was in pain the last few days. And when the stepdad visited her on Friday she didn't even know who he was. :(
They gave her something for the pain... so at least it feels good to know that she just fell asleep. She wasn't in pain and she won't be in pain anymore.
I didn't see her after she was diagnosed with cancer. She didn't want any of the 'kids' to see her. Maybe it was for the best? We'll forever remember the grandmother we've always known and not the grandmother who was sick... and weak. It might sound weird but it sort of feels better this way.
I'll always miss her.
Rest in peace, nan <33