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Oh great mother of god! man- what to say. I wanna say so much except, im exhausted. School is about over, with 1 more test to take tomorrow, on cow eyes and sheep brains no less. I feel relieved yet, very energentic tonight. Maybe its the dew amp i just drank- followed by brownie bites- swished down with some popcorn and hot chocolate. And i wonder why i stay so sick? I am so amped up about christmas its not funny. I got that bed (the foam bed thingy) you know the one from the nasa people. Yeah! i cant have it till christmas. Im stoked.
-> IN other news, i cut all my hair off. Its short (way above my shoulders) and i can flip it out. It looks really cute. I dont know why i havent done it before. I want to get my labret (sp) the lip thingy above ur chin pierced. I think im going to get that done maybe sometime this week (i hope) i want to get like a little tinny diamond there. So it sparkles when i talk.! yay for me. um. what else. hmmmm.
I cant really think of anything else. I just want to run. run run run. run and listen to my ipod. That sounds like fun right now. OH! im hopefully going to be getting a chinchilla! i cant decided. chinchilla or guinea pig. I cant decided. the more i think about it, the more im not sure. I kinda just wanna be free and get organized right now. I think over christmas break- im going to re decorate my room. This usually helps me. Top to bottom.
- I feel like i havent talked to anyone. Trisha called me the other day, talked to her for a brief sec and when i say brief i mean i got barely enough time to say Hi.. after her learning of me being sick, as if she could catch it through the phone. ( i love ya trishY POOO) but after i hung up i dazed off and fell asleep.
- I guess i am better mentally. My medicine really seems to help. Im not quite as depressed and i actually want to make it another day. I was reading jacobs journal the other day and i read where he said something about not doing any school work yet feeling so bogged down with stuff. and thats exactly how i felt. I did nothing but yet felt so tired of doing "nothing" that i felt like i had done a whole bunch of something. when in reality it was nothing at all. I know it sounds weird but he described it to a T! god bless gay people.
- Oh heres a biggie for some of you. I bought a bible. And i am actually reading it. alittle every night. im still on genisus(sp?) but im slowly getting it. I actually find reading the bible quite calming to some effect. Im going to start going to church with renee on weds nights. Its a real laid back place. I feel like something is missing and i think finding god might be it, in some weird way i dont know. well im going to call it a night and go watch some fear factor. Nothin says fun like watching someone eat cow intestins..
adios
-> IN other news, i cut all my hair off. Its short (way above my shoulders) and i can flip it out. It looks really cute. I dont know why i havent done it before. I want to get my labret (sp) the lip thingy above ur chin pierced. I think im going to get that done maybe sometime this week (i hope) i want to get like a little tinny diamond there. So it sparkles when i talk.! yay for me. um. what else. hmmmm.
I cant really think of anything else. I just want to run. run run run. run and listen to my ipod. That sounds like fun right now. OH! im hopefully going to be getting a chinchilla! i cant decided. chinchilla or guinea pig. I cant decided. the more i think about it, the more im not sure. I kinda just wanna be free and get organized right now. I think over christmas break- im going to re decorate my room. This usually helps me. Top to bottom.
- I feel like i havent talked to anyone. Trisha called me the other day, talked to her for a brief sec and when i say brief i mean i got barely enough time to say Hi.. after her learning of me being sick, as if she could catch it through the phone. ( i love ya trishY POOO) but after i hung up i dazed off and fell asleep.
- I guess i am better mentally. My medicine really seems to help. Im not quite as depressed and i actually want to make it another day. I was reading jacobs journal the other day and i read where he said something about not doing any school work yet feeling so bogged down with stuff. and thats exactly how i felt. I did nothing but yet felt so tired of doing "nothing" that i felt like i had done a whole bunch of something. when in reality it was nothing at all. I know it sounds weird but he described it to a T! god bless gay people.
- Oh heres a biggie for some of you. I bought a bible. And i am actually reading it. alittle every night. im still on genisus(sp?) but im slowly getting it. I actually find reading the bible quite calming to some effect. Im going to start going to church with renee on weds nights. Its a real laid back place. I feel like something is missing and i think finding god might be it, in some weird way i dont know. well im going to call it a night and go watch some fear factor. Nothin says fun like watching someone eat cow intestins..
adios