Holy Fuck It's Been A Long Time....
So it's been like, forever, since i've posted on this beast so i'd just like to update people on the goings on in my life and the super fucked up situation i've managed to get myself into.... but we'll get to that one later...
so first of all.. I was dating this guy, Rick... i don't know if i talked about him on here yet or not... and we were together for almost 2 months and then i broke up with him... He was just....Creepy, to put in nicely... Like at that point in time i thought that i wanted a like serious relationship, but he was like Uber serious.. like in the first week he said i love you and when i didn't say it back, he cried.... and then he did the whole name slip thing during sex (yah he called me his ex's name) and for some reason i forgave him..and he cried then too... Like seriously i saw him cry more times in the first month than ive seen any man cry... i don't get it... and then for me the relationship just turned into sex, and he just kinda turned into an ass, so i ended it. and im much fucking happier without him... like seriously, that doesn't really make sense, but whatever... Im way better off without him. and now he hates me, and prolly cried again when i left him... GOOD go cry to you mom, bitch, i know she's your best friend. wow, im such a nice person.
so break was pretty much lame... i really realized who my real friends are over break... and that almost every friendship i had in HS meant shit to everybody else but me...but hey whatever.. lol, the day i got back up here i ripped down a good 30 pics that i had on my wall of me and them... pretty sweet eh? whatever, im over it. I worked a lot over break...which is kinda how i got into this fucked up situation that im in right now.....
so at work i met this guy, he worked fo CCME (the arcade company that had guys workin for the games at KH) and we talked a bit and whatnot and got to know eachother, but the thing is is that we didn't really start talking until like the week before i left, so we didn't have much time to talk... Well randomly on Monday he found me on Myspace and was like super excited..as was i cuz he was a pretty sweet guy... Well he gave me his number (he texts all the time, he got yelled at for it at work all the time) he told me text him if i got bored...so of course to me nice, i gave him mine... Well that was monday and ever since then, we've been texting constantly..like seriously not joke... on tuesday, the first day the textin started, by the end of the night there were 155 messages recieved from him... and come to find out later, he has a like uber serious girlfriend, like they live together and everything...and some of the texts that happen aren't exactly things that a man with a girlfriend should be saying to another girl.... but we're still talking, and the sexual content of the messages justs keeps getting worse.. Today i finally said No to something he asked and explained to him that me saying that isn't exactly appropriate for me to be saying to a man with a gf..i have lines that i wont cross and i know that i wouldn't want some chick to me textin my bf things like that..there are just certin things that i cant do so i dont feel like i bitch..... like that's pretty much exactly what i said to him, and he didn't really get it... he's like, don't feel like a bitch, as long as it stays between us, its not a problem...ugh... and he's still textin me...
and last night he was drunk and was telling me about how his gf is pretty much a raging, controlling bitch.. and i felt bad for him, but GAH, i feel so bad for talking to him...
Like we text constantly..which means he's constantly texting me infront of his girlfriend... like i wonder if she asks who he's talking to, and what he says in response... and the other night he was texting me when he was laying in bed..yah, im assuming he sleeps with her...GAH, and that night he told me that he was sick of sleeping with his gf...like seriously, who says that.
and he keeps tellin me that he wants to sleep with me and blah blah blah...
but at the same time he's really sweet... like at least once a day he tells me how beautiful i am..which is just good to hear every once in a while.
but at the same time i have the sirens goin off in my head telling me to leave it alone cuz HE HAS A FUCKING GIRL FRIEND!!!
Gah, but still...for some strange reason i still like him.. and i dont want to...
Geeze, i have the worst luck when it comes to guys...i give up!
but gahhhh, what should i do? any suggestions? any help would be freakin' amazing...
and i know that i should stop talking to him, but i cant, i like the company, and i dont wanna lose thim completly.
so i pretty much just suck at life eh?
am i a horrible person?
gah i hate myself!
so first of all.. I was dating this guy, Rick... i don't know if i talked about him on here yet or not... and we were together for almost 2 months and then i broke up with him... He was just....Creepy, to put in nicely... Like at that point in time i thought that i wanted a like serious relationship, but he was like Uber serious.. like in the first week he said i love you and when i didn't say it back, he cried.... and then he did the whole name slip thing during sex (yah he called me his ex's name) and for some reason i forgave him..and he cried then too... Like seriously i saw him cry more times in the first month than ive seen any man cry... i don't get it... and then for me the relationship just turned into sex, and he just kinda turned into an ass, so i ended it. and im much fucking happier without him... like seriously, that doesn't really make sense, but whatever... Im way better off without him. and now he hates me, and prolly cried again when i left him... GOOD go cry to you mom, bitch, i know she's your best friend. wow, im such a nice person.
so break was pretty much lame... i really realized who my real friends are over break... and that almost every friendship i had in HS meant shit to everybody else but me...but hey whatever.. lol, the day i got back up here i ripped down a good 30 pics that i had on my wall of me and them... pretty sweet eh? whatever, im over it. I worked a lot over break...which is kinda how i got into this fucked up situation that im in right now.....
so at work i met this guy, he worked fo CCME (the arcade company that had guys workin for the games at KH) and we talked a bit and whatnot and got to know eachother, but the thing is is that we didn't really start talking until like the week before i left, so we didn't have much time to talk... Well randomly on Monday he found me on Myspace and was like super excited..as was i cuz he was a pretty sweet guy... Well he gave me his number (he texts all the time, he got yelled at for it at work all the time) he told me text him if i got bored...so of course to me nice, i gave him mine... Well that was monday and ever since then, we've been texting constantly..like seriously not joke... on tuesday, the first day the textin started, by the end of the night there were 155 messages recieved from him... and come to find out later, he has a like uber serious girlfriend, like they live together and everything...and some of the texts that happen aren't exactly things that a man with a girlfriend should be saying to another girl.... but we're still talking, and the sexual content of the messages justs keeps getting worse.. Today i finally said No to something he asked and explained to him that me saying that isn't exactly appropriate for me to be saying to a man with a gf..i have lines that i wont cross and i know that i wouldn't want some chick to me textin my bf things like that..there are just certin things that i cant do so i dont feel like i bitch..... like that's pretty much exactly what i said to him, and he didn't really get it... he's like, don't feel like a bitch, as long as it stays between us, its not a problem...ugh... and he's still textin me...
and last night he was drunk and was telling me about how his gf is pretty much a raging, controlling bitch.. and i felt bad for him, but GAH, i feel so bad for talking to him...
Like we text constantly..which means he's constantly texting me infront of his girlfriend... like i wonder if she asks who he's talking to, and what he says in response... and the other night he was texting me when he was laying in bed..yah, im assuming he sleeps with her...GAH, and that night he told me that he was sick of sleeping with his gf...like seriously, who says that.
and he keeps tellin me that he wants to sleep with me and blah blah blah...
but at the same time he's really sweet... like at least once a day he tells me how beautiful i am..which is just good to hear every once in a while.
but at the same time i have the sirens goin off in my head telling me to leave it alone cuz HE HAS A FUCKING GIRL FRIEND!!!
Gah, but still...for some strange reason i still like him.. and i dont want to...
Geeze, i have the worst luck when it comes to guys...i give up!
but gahhhh, what should i do? any suggestions? any help would be freakin' amazing...
and i know that i should stop talking to him, but i cant, i like the company, and i dont wanna lose thim completly.
so i pretty much just suck at life eh?
am i a horrible person?
gah i hate myself!