Issues

[kim_watkins]

One time Jordan said to me, "I've got issues" and I said, "And we don't?" God. Do I ever.

To begin. Roger is dead. Murdered horribly from the sound of things considering they found him in pieces. Pieces. The man I used to be married to, sleep with, and produced a child with is now nothing more than an unsolved jigsaw puzzle whose pieces can

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[john_carter_md]

Kim...

I don't even know where to begin. I don't know what to say. You said it all so eloquently already. We were stupid, but...but I don't regret it. I mean...you're a wonderful prson, Kim. We shouldn't have gone so far as we did, at least not without protection...

If you are pregnant, I will stand beside you. I will do whatever I can, Kim. It's...It's difficult to even think about it because of what I've just been through with Kem and George, but...but I'll stand with you and support you and the baby...

Now seems as good a time as any to tell you with Kem, when she told me she was pregnant i devoted myself to her. I thought I had to. I felt trapped by her, because I couldn't just walk away. She was carrying my child, and the child I loved unconditionally. I did not love Kem, and I knew I never would. She was sweet and I believed in her passion for treating the AIDS victims in Africa, in fact she was something of an inspiration because of that passion. But I didn't love her. I coulddn't love her.

I know it's far too soon for me to say I love you, but I can definitely feel the possibility for it. You were one of the only people I could talk to after George died, and I found great comfort in talking to you. Then when Leo surfaced her, in my hospital and you came to Chicago...It felt like fate.

We're both adults here, Kim. We can deal with whatever happens now. But, if you are pregnant or if you're not, I'm right here and I want to see you again. Maybe I could take you out on a real date sometime...

[kim_watkins]

Oh God, John... Now I'm the one who doesn't know what to say, except this. I don't regret it either not the... not the night itself. My regrets are that it was too soon, and that... well, you know. The baby. A baby, I mean. Part of me wants to just think about that night and let it make me happy like it does sometimes. Until I think about the risks we took, and then the other part of me starts dissolving into panic.

And not just because of the possibility of a baby. Because of what we've both been through, and how everything for me is so helter skelter, and I don't want either of us to think the other is a rebound. I just got out of a serious relationship too. Actually, it never officially ended, but I did love him. I would have married him if all this other stuff hadn't happened. You should know that. I won't say that I don't think there's no possibility for us down the road. But I'm not sure if I'm over Trey, and I don't want to hurt you or seem like something I'm not. God, I don't even know. Am I making any sense?

I am also not saying I don't think we should see or speak to each other again. I'll have to think about the date though. I just don't know. I'm so confused.

[john_carter_md]

I'm confused too, Kim. I shouldn't have said anything about a date. It's too soon for that. Even...even after what we did. But...just when you're ready. It's open, anytime.

You're a wonderful woman, Kim. I just...I don't want one stupid crazy night to ruin our friendship.

[kim_watkins]

I don't either. So let's be sure it doesn't. We can do things as friends, even if it's not a "date," you know? Because if we don't then we'll wind up just never speaking to each other, and even though I've only known you a short time I don't want that to happen. We were stupid once... okay, twice, but not being friends because of this would be the stupidest thing of all.