If you could change one moment in your past, what would it be?
It's so hard to choose just a single moment. Often the smaller moments lead to bigger ones, blanket moments that come to shape a large part of our lives. And how do we know that changing that one tiny thing wouldn't negate something positive that happened because of it? I could say I would never have slept with my ex-husband, but then I would not have my beautiful son Leo. So in the end, would I change that? Despite all of the pain Roger has caused people I love and me, I would not.
What I would change isn’t really a moment, but an attitude from my youth. I would appreciate my adoptive parents more. I wouldn’t worry so much about why my birth parents gave me up. I know I must have hurt Charlene and David Watkins terribly by my ungratefulness growing up, and yet they never said anything about it. I asked Mom a few years ago but she wouldn’t tell me anything. She just said not to worry about it, that I was her daughter and always had been, something I’ve always known even when I was being stubborn.
Dad died from cancer a couple of years ago, but Mom’s still here. She’s been with me through this whole thing with Leo being kidnapped; she’s taken care of me, but known when I wanted to be alone. She didn’t even reprimand me when I started smoking again. My mother gives me strength and if I could take back all the hurt I’ve given her, I would.
What I would change isn’t really a moment, but an attitude from my youth. I would appreciate my adoptive parents more. I wouldn’t worry so much about why my birth parents gave me up. I know I must have hurt Charlene and David Watkins terribly by my ungratefulness growing up, and yet they never said anything about it. I asked Mom a few years ago but she wouldn’t tell me anything. She just said not to worry about it, that I was her daughter and always had been, something I’ve always known even when I was being stubborn.
Dad died from cancer a couple of years ago, but Mom’s still here. She’s been with me through this whole thing with Leo being kidnapped; she’s taken care of me, but known when I wanted to be alone. She didn’t even reprimand me when I started smoking again. My mother gives me strength and if I could take back all the hurt I’ve given her, I would.