Nobody said it was easy
I need to find a place to sleep....for like one night. I'm sick of not being able to sleep all through my night. I get phone calls at 9:30-10 in the morning and it's annoying as fuck. My sister wakes me up for the most assinine bullshit and it really makes me mad. I'm really depressed today for some reason. I don't know. I want to talk to someone but there's like no one to talk to. I'm like stuck between a rock and a hard place. I'm just crying for no reason...and I don't like it. Why do things have to be so hard? Everyone wants me to do things their way and I have so many people telling me what I should do I can't even make up my own mind. I can't clear my head because it's virtually impossible to do at my house. I wanna scream so loud that I release all my aggressions. I don't think that it'll help though. I get to work tonite...again...woot. I still don't know if I'm going to be quitting or not...everyone is telling me different things to do. Whatever. I just want to be able to think on my own. My sister is such a bitch...I wanna punch her in the face. And the look in my mom's face this past week has been empathy and that's really wierd to see. It's like she's feeling my pain and kinda understands that I'm having a rough time. I can only keep my composure for so long. I want to be happy because I know that there are some people around me who are having a rough time....and I want to be strong for them and it's so hard when I'm so weak right now. I have to buck up for work though...no one likes a weak person at work. Especially when I'm sad...it's like everyone feels it...and I don't like that at all. well....I'm ready to go smoke a cigarette...which I have been doing too much of.
Peace.