Jul 15, 2002 10:12
Well ya lastnight was kind of a waist for sure of 10 bucks. Well i got all ready to go out and have fun. But we ended up smokin in the car but i didnt so they all got mad. So when we got to the club, i was standing ther and who shows up DERICK, And REGGIE. I was like so happy to derick, then i remembered he had a gf so i was like oh shit she might beat me up. but he was like we broke up so i like jumped on him because i was sooo happy. Then me and laura were just walking around looking at the guys, then i saw kenny, and he gave me one of those what up girl looks. So i stopped and said hi for like 2 minutes! then i was in such a good mood so i was like laura lets go on the car so we did! I was hoping that he saw me dancing. Then i got off the car. N i was going to go talk to him but laura was complaining lets leave so me and her started to yell. But ya, so i was on my way to talk to him and then i saw a bunch of "his type" of girls so i just said nvm, i dont feel good we might as well leave. N all i could do was look behind me and think how i should have told him how i feel. I guess seeing him at the baseball game made me realize alot in my life. That for...
1)I blew my chance
2)Theres more to life
3)That i do like him but i dont want to if he isnt gunna be straight out honest about me and him.
4)Never to call guys more then 1 time a week!
But ya i wish i never blew my chance with him in the beginning. Hes a great guy, and i dont want him to get hurt by any other girl. But ya back to my story, i got out of the club and we went down to Honey farms. n i didnt want to go in so i waited out on the car. Then these bunch of kids came up in there explorer and they were all like whats up did u go to the club, then they asked my age and i was like im a little young for u, but it made my night because it was funny to see. Then i got a ride home with my friend pat half way becuz we got in a big fight with mike so pat brought me home. But then when i got home i was wicked crying cuz i just really want kenny to know that im not really how i was the first 2 months of knowing him. but ya i have a dentist appt. to go to so byebye