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[kilty]

going to sleep with candles burning
waking only to blow them out
hearing knocks
and unlocking locks
making decisions
finding pot.
having a heart that is slowly freezing
having a mind that is slowly numbing
having a body that is aching
maybe i should pay my electric bill
the furnace is still off.
i think water is more important, and its cheaper.
falls kicking ass. he trees make me smile, the sky makes me smile, short passing conversations make me smile.
i myself am inert. im slowly gaingin momentum or how ever the fuck
i need a job, i need a job.
i need some gas, i need some ciggarettes. i need my crutch.
i wish i could run away but im on a lease and i need people as much as they might not really need me.
i hate the fact that i can express all that i feel in words, i wish i could make people understand.
or am i an open book that people just dont think is that good.

my heart goes out to all you muffins. you know who you are. muffins sniff um.

o yea there is a red party tomorow night at myn and my neighbors house. wear red. 11 pm 611 and or 607 barret ave(the void). be there or be rectangle