sorry this is so long...i didnt mean for it to be
ahh..valentines day.
what a day...
in school nothing special really happend. I got an AWESOME card from Joelle and a box of chocolates. I love that girl. and it was pretty much an okay day. then end was kindof stressful because the stupid fucking sub we had (who slightly resembled and sounded like george bush) locked me out of the room at the end of the day and i was so scared i was gonna miss the bus because my stuff was still inside so i got mr rivoira and i was like help! and he tried but he didnt have the right key and i was like ahhh.
then mr abrahms(jr/sr teacher-philosophy) came with the key and i made my bus.
when i got home i just like talked with my mom about my grandma who almost died :( i dont know what I would have done if she died on valentines day. sshe was okay...but basically i HATE nurses in nursing homes
my grandmas diabetic and they didnt ask if shed eaten her breakfast and they gave her two shots of insulin and her blood sugar went down to 30 (if its at 0 it means your dead) and so she went to the hospital and it took them 2 hours to get her stable and breathing on her own. shes been through so much this year. i feel bad. i dunno if ive told anyone besides jess and sarah this but she had to have her leg amputated...how much would that suck.
but she keeps us happy cause they have her on this really strong anxiety medicine and its making her haucinate and she keeps complaining about the chickens flying around the room and she starts like grabing at the air around my moms head and my moms what what are you doing mom?? and shes like im getting the chickens off your head DUH hahahaha. it was so cute.
so anyways...after all that nick came to pick me up. He came to the door with the prettiest rose and pink flowers. I nearly died...he got me candy too and made me a cd of songs that remind him of us. oh my gosh its the cutest thing. I would list the songs but im too lazy. i was like on the verge of crying but i still had tog et in the car with his mom so i was like suck it up...i wanted to like kiss him everywhere but i was like ...15 minutes...just wait 15 minutes...
so then we got there and watched IT hahaha worst cheesiest movie EVER.
and you know we got a little distracted......
and then after that we just put on some random movie and talked...and like we were laughing SO hard i like started to cry. we had SO much fun we were like getting in really funny positions(no not like that you pervert) on his basement floor and like talking to eachother in them we finally found one we liked and like tickled eachother and stuff...it was so nice.
hah..and this used to be my least favorite holiday..HAH...HAH I SAY!
dshflkjgh i love him so much. I seriously like wow. ive never had anything like this before.
in other news
the world is so beautiful.
thats the one thing i really really really really love about myself....i am able to see SO much beauty i the world.
if there was a job...and it was just like....go look at the world and just appreciate every aspect of it and how everything WORKS everything works so well even the bad thing work because "without suffering there would be no commpassion" i want to make a movie or movies on the beauty of it all....its amazing...how we have no idea how we got here if this is heaven...if there are 439857093745 other galaxies 495760956 other worlds. but everythign just works here. and everything outside is beautiful. even when its gross out is beautiful......i really just appreciate the world.
i love people. and i think its possible to love anyone weather it be justa s a friend or more because even the people you love have flaws or things you dont like but you love them reguardless because thats just who they are everyone is themselves weather it be themselves reacting to a situation they're in or themselves being fake because thats how they choose to be. you always yourself. Thats why i think people who are annoying...shouldnt be blamed...they dont mean it.
^^^i realize this is a happy emo kid trying to be a hippy paragraph...but fuck you. because i know thats what yoru thinking.
i honeslty think that stuff...the 3 year old me who liked barbies and barney the 7 year old me who loved hanson and 9 year old me up to now...i have always thought that. thats one of the reasons i loved where i used to live...everythign was so pretty...i would just sit and watch it all...
your homework assignment: as my grandpa used to say "take a walk and marvel at gods green earth" (he was very irish)