The Deading of Richey Van Hastings
The subject has no point by the way. I've been feeling tip top and pit spot this week so far. Well it barely started so it has a litte more time to crush my spirits and make a fine powder out of them. But I think this week will be better than other weeks. Tomorrow Julie and I are going out for dinner and we're gonna get all dressed up and stuff. No celebration just something fun to do. I'm hoping to get a new job soon. I'm contemplating going to a staffing agency as Julie suggested. But today I remembered that they fucked her royally at tax time so I dunno about that. The pros might outweigh the cons, but we'll see. Soon we'll have paid off the debt to her credit card and our furniture so we can start working on my school situation and hopefully I can be back in action soon. Up until this point today I've felt it was okay to just kinda coast through life. Not really coast but just fucking enjoy life to the fullest extent that I wanted. I mean I work at Suckbusters but I get free movies and I love watching movies and it does pay the bills for now. I thought it would be grand if I just lived off of that for awhile enjoying life and love but when someone else is involved it takes on a whole new meaning, life does. You can't just think of yourself anymore. You'd think a genius like me would've realized this sooner, but I was holding on to a foolish fantasy that was self detrimental. I've come so far and I was just content to plateau. Not anymore though, I want to forge ahead and make a better life for not only Julie and I, but if we are to have children.... She may not understand it, but I can be content in any situation as long as she's there by my side smiling at me with her beautiful smile. She really does bring me to life in ways I didn't think possible. Well anyhow, better days and buttercups. Fiddlesticks and licorice whips. Dildos and trans-hoes? probably not..