Contemplation

[kilnger]

I've wondered at times what is it with my attitude. I constantly fluctuate between a very contemplative deameanor to an irritated one to an antisocial one. At times, my changes are completely 180. I wonder if I am subconsciously aware of all the shit I do and how malicious and hateful I can be.

Why can't I get my vision straight and do what I'm supposed to do in the grand scheme of things? standards suck.