Damn Friends
So I had a good Valetine's Day. My jerk friends had to come and accept my offer to take them out (including the girl I like) and we had a kickass good time for dinner. To rub salt in the wounds, we had to chill and watch a movie while drinking sake afterwards. We had a great time all around, and I cannot rightfully call this National Depression Day (at least for myself).
It's very refreshing and different to be treated this way. I couldn't help but treat my friends in return in the same manner. I guess the only thing that really bothers me is that her boyfriend...didn't care it was Valentine's Day. I'm sorry, but I know she's bossy and whatnot, so there's something weird. It could be me overanalyzing, or just my wish to be with her, but I feel she's not being treated as well as she should be. I'm such a ditz sometimes. I love her to death, but I feel as if there's something definitely weird in the air.
On lighter news, her and I are slowly getting better. While we've not yet had a downright conversation (it's going to be epic when it happens), we're slowly beginning to warm up to each other. My problem comes with the imaginary line that I can't cross, or I fuck it all up. Little by little, step by step. I really do care for her, that's not a lie. I can honestly say it's not a pure physical attraction. We have a very deep connection. We enjoy the same things, we very easily and naturally bounce conversation off each other, and we can best keep each other in check. We're different enough where we can both be radically opposed, yet we can get to a point where we would immensely enjoy each other's company.
I can't speak on fact, not at all. I can just speak in feelings. I don't know her every mannerism or detail, but I do know the general gist. I know her feelings, her emotions, and I care about her. Should we ever get into a relationship, I've no belief that we'd just be perfect for each other. Relationships are something you have to work at, something you have to nurture, and make stronger. We have the personality and emotion for each other to make it work. All we need is that one little spark. The little spark to get the entire thing going.
I'd like to say it's only a matter of time, but the real question is, do I have the time to wait? I really do love her, I just hope this isn't something that I'll run out of time for. In a few months...our time together will be over, and we'll be going our seperate ways. I don't want to lose her beacuse of that. Not because I didn't try.
But I will wait, and I will restrain myself as best I can. For her sake, and for mine, this is something that will take time. I can't help but worry. I just know one thing is for sure, and that is that I love her. Here's hoping.
Happy Valentine's Day, I know I had a good one.
It's very refreshing and different to be treated this way. I couldn't help but treat my friends in return in the same manner. I guess the only thing that really bothers me is that her boyfriend...didn't care it was Valentine's Day. I'm sorry, but I know she's bossy and whatnot, so there's something weird. It could be me overanalyzing, or just my wish to be with her, but I feel she's not being treated as well as she should be. I'm such a ditz sometimes. I love her to death, but I feel as if there's something definitely weird in the air.
On lighter news, her and I are slowly getting better. While we've not yet had a downright conversation (it's going to be epic when it happens), we're slowly beginning to warm up to each other. My problem comes with the imaginary line that I can't cross, or I fuck it all up. Little by little, step by step. I really do care for her, that's not a lie. I can honestly say it's not a pure physical attraction. We have a very deep connection. We enjoy the same things, we very easily and naturally bounce conversation off each other, and we can best keep each other in check. We're different enough where we can both be radically opposed, yet we can get to a point where we would immensely enjoy each other's company.
I can't speak on fact, not at all. I can just speak in feelings. I don't know her every mannerism or detail, but I do know the general gist. I know her feelings, her emotions, and I care about her. Should we ever get into a relationship, I've no belief that we'd just be perfect for each other. Relationships are something you have to work at, something you have to nurture, and make stronger. We have the personality and emotion for each other to make it work. All we need is that one little spark. The little spark to get the entire thing going.
I'd like to say it's only a matter of time, but the real question is, do I have the time to wait? I really do love her, I just hope this isn't something that I'll run out of time for. In a few months...our time together will be over, and we'll be going our seperate ways. I don't want to lose her beacuse of that. Not because I didn't try.
But I will wait, and I will restrain myself as best I can. For her sake, and for mine, this is something that will take time. I can't help but worry. I just know one thing is for sure, and that is that I love her. Here's hoping.
Happy Valentine's Day, I know I had a good one.