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i feel wonderful right now. the only thing that would make this night any better was if i had a boy to share it with.
i feel myself. i feel comfortable with that. i feel tired, and silly, and happy, and sad all at the same time. but the good thing is, the sadness is bearable. it doesnt crush all the other feelings of happiness or feeling silly, which is great. this is the kind of sad i can take. this is the kind of sad i can deal with.
i feel like going somewhere, but i just got home less than an hour ago. i should probably sleep, but god knows i wont, so i dont even know why i say that anymore.
i cut my hair today. everyones told me its real cute, but im not so sure about it yet. it might be too short for me. or maybe im just used to my hair being so long now. i have no idea. hopefully ill grow into liking it. i want to put black streaks in it tomorrow maybe? sometime soon anyway.
i want to talk to one certain person, but they are asleep. as are most people at 309 in the morning.
i dont know why i feel excited, but i do. like something will happen soon, something good, because i need something good to happen soon.
today was ridiculous. a fucking deer JUMPED onto the hood of my car and smashed it all up. the hood is dented in really bad, the windshield is COMPLETELY wrecked, and the right head light and head light cover are all smashed to pieces. im so FUCKING MAD. i just got that car worked on so it would run smoother, and then that happens. i only had to replace a door, which wouldve been cheap and made the car look really good. the outside would look pretty damn nice. but nooo a stupid fucking deer jumps onto my car and ruins it. i swear on anything, that these stupid things ALWAYS happen to me. i might as well expect something stupid happening to me just about every other day.
i want to be adventurous, try new things. i dont like the same ol same ol. i need excitement and fun things to keep me interested in life. otherwise im just really bored all the time.
well im done for now.
i feel myself. i feel comfortable with that. i feel tired, and silly, and happy, and sad all at the same time. but the good thing is, the sadness is bearable. it doesnt crush all the other feelings of happiness or feeling silly, which is great. this is the kind of sad i can take. this is the kind of sad i can deal with.
i feel like going somewhere, but i just got home less than an hour ago. i should probably sleep, but god knows i wont, so i dont even know why i say that anymore.
i cut my hair today. everyones told me its real cute, but im not so sure about it yet. it might be too short for me. or maybe im just used to my hair being so long now. i have no idea. hopefully ill grow into liking it. i want to put black streaks in it tomorrow maybe? sometime soon anyway.
i want to talk to one certain person, but they are asleep. as are most people at 309 in the morning.
i dont know why i feel excited, but i do. like something will happen soon, something good, because i need something good to happen soon.
today was ridiculous. a fucking deer JUMPED onto the hood of my car and smashed it all up. the hood is dented in really bad, the windshield is COMPLETELY wrecked, and the right head light and head light cover are all smashed to pieces. im so FUCKING MAD. i just got that car worked on so it would run smoother, and then that happens. i only had to replace a door, which wouldve been cheap and made the car look really good. the outside would look pretty damn nice. but nooo a stupid fucking deer jumps onto my car and ruins it. i swear on anything, that these stupid things ALWAYS happen to me. i might as well expect something stupid happening to me just about every other day.
i want to be adventurous, try new things. i dont like the same ol same ol. i need excitement and fun things to keep me interested in life. otherwise im just really bored all the time.
well im done for now.