A riot.
So everything and nothing has been going on. The ending of summer was mostly good. Starting school is a drag. I'm not really "into" school. I really dont know how i'm going to finish the semester, let alone the rest of college. Yikes! Random run ins with people who you havent seen in over a year it alright. It seems like nothing has changed with me and everything has changed with them. That part makes me unhappy sometimes. But then i see how much people have changed, not necessarily for the better or worse, and i ultimately feel happy that i havent made any sort of drastic change. Maybe i have changed but cant tell. Who knows.
Work is work. I have to get up at 6am on monday, wednesday, and fridays to be at work at 7. I have to wake up at 7am on tuesday and thursdays to make it to school. Sunday i work. The only day i really have to relax, sleep in, do fun things, and catch up on homework is saturday. This is some what of a challenge i feel like my schedule is pretty full because by time i get home everyday i'm so exhausted i dont feel like doing anything.
I'm slowly going crazy still living at home. Having my mother come in every morning and telling me she is leaving bothers me. its a nice gesture but i just dont like it. having to hear every conversation anyone has in the house is annoying. having everyone hear every conversation i have in this house is annoying. having to account for myself twenty four hours a day is annoying. Sometimes i feel like i'm never going to make it out of here.
I doubt I will be updating this livejournal much anymore. i've lost interest mostly and i dont feel it important or necessary to share my daily activities with the world. But i'm doing fine. And i'm working towards some future goal that seems so intangible that most of the time i just want to stop. I have to remind myself that one day all of this hard work and unhappiness will be worth an awesome greater life that i will look back and thank myself. Until that day I'll ask myself why i'm doing this and wake up every morning and think to myself, not again.
Adieu.
katherine.
Work is work. I have to get up at 6am on monday, wednesday, and fridays to be at work at 7. I have to wake up at 7am on tuesday and thursdays to make it to school. Sunday i work. The only day i really have to relax, sleep in, do fun things, and catch up on homework is saturday. This is some what of a challenge i feel like my schedule is pretty full because by time i get home everyday i'm so exhausted i dont feel like doing anything.
I'm slowly going crazy still living at home. Having my mother come in every morning and telling me she is leaving bothers me. its a nice gesture but i just dont like it. having to hear every conversation anyone has in the house is annoying. having everyone hear every conversation i have in this house is annoying. having to account for myself twenty four hours a day is annoying. Sometimes i feel like i'm never going to make it out of here.
I doubt I will be updating this livejournal much anymore. i've lost interest mostly and i dont feel it important or necessary to share my daily activities with the world. But i'm doing fine. And i'm working towards some future goal that seems so intangible that most of the time i just want to stop. I have to remind myself that one day all of this hard work and unhappiness will be worth an awesome greater life that i will look back and thank myself. Until that day I'll ask myself why i'm doing this and wake up every morning and think to myself, not again.
Adieu.
katherine.