A million miles ago you seem the star that i just don't see anymore

May 21, 2005 00:20

Working 15 hours a week sucks. I have no money. But my boss said i could be working 40 hours next week? Sweet. Just about atleast. Sunday, monday, tuesday, friday and saturday. All opening!!! Except sunday i work 11-9. wtf. Its okay, I want to buy a new digital camera before i go to california so hopefully working a ton will allow me with this. Also, im expecting 66 dollars back from school for left over money on my parking card. Back to my job. they hired another cashier. That makes umm like five cashiers. Is this necessary? Absolutely not. Actually, i dont really care as long as i get enough hours. Its sort of fustrating sometimes because i feel like i've been doing the same thing for a year and a half at this job, which i have, and it gets monotonous, fustrating, but comfortable all at the same time. I like my job most of the time, believe it or not, but sometimes i want to be seen as more than "just a cashier." Even to customers who never want to believe me about anything. I shouldnt complain though.

So, yeah im going to california in about a month. For a little less than two weeks. Yay! Im excited. Julie will be accompanying me, as of now, which should be interesting. But fun most definately. I'm excited and glad i only have to wait a month. Perhaps i will come back with a tan because i am so white. Which i am sorry that i cannot help it! Anyway, i am most excited because i dont think i've been on a vacation in like two years. And i think the last time i went on one, it was to see my grandparents at a retirement home in florida. And i had to share a fold out couch bed with my mother. THIS TIME IS FOR REAL! SUN AND FUN!

My birthday is a little less than two months away. Oh boy. I think birthdays arent that exciting anymore. When you are like ten and you have a kick ass birthday party then its fun. Not so much anymore.

My grades came out alright. Of course i should have, and could have, done a lot better. Squeezed by and i still am able to keep hope, praise god. I dont know what i would have done if i lost it. I dont like college that much. I dont think its college that i dont like as much as its the school and doing work. I just dont have the drive and will to want to do it. If i have kids and they dont want to go to college I think i will be accepting of that. Next semester i'm going to try harder though.

I think I am done with the complaining about my life part of my life. I dont really get too depressed anymore. My friends arent the most important thing in life anymore. I guess overall I am becoming a little more self centered. Just an overall feeling i guess. Happier though. Which is good. My life is changing. For the better.

Whatever. I just want to go to california and kick ass. Yeah!
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