we are your friends
i'm still terrified. i could cry.
i hate change.
i wanted the whole world to freeze while i was away.
what if i don't get along with aaron? fuck, what if i don't get along with my own best friend?
we talk quite a bit but things change in person. we notice our differences much easier.
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chris and i will be leaving in less than a month.
we'll have to stay with my grandparents for the remainder of april. i don't know how that's going to work out considering that i've been smoking for almost 5 years and my family still doesn't, and can never know.
i'm so mad at myself for partying at such a young age. for being so fucking stupid and easily influenced. i'm so ashamed of my habit. i'm going to look 50 by the time i'm 30.
speaking of looking old. i have been going to the gym for an hour and a half, 5 times a week, for 2 months and there's been no progress since the first week i started.
i'm thick like a boar. and nothing i do changes it.
i've never been so depressed about myself in my entire life.
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my period is late.
that probably explains why i'm so weepy today.
at least i know i'm not pregnant.
apparently nausea means pregnancy to the doctors here. i had to get tested on friday.
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i miss christopher.
he's been gone for 3 hours. i'm pathetic.
and i want some guacamole
i also put an add in the base paper for our cats. i hope somebody wants them. i can't leave them.
i hate change.
i wanted the whole world to freeze while i was away.
what if i don't get along with aaron? fuck, what if i don't get along with my own best friend?
we talk quite a bit but things change in person. we notice our differences much easier.
-
chris and i will be leaving in less than a month.
we'll have to stay with my grandparents for the remainder of april. i don't know how that's going to work out considering that i've been smoking for almost 5 years and my family still doesn't, and can never know.
i'm so mad at myself for partying at such a young age. for being so fucking stupid and easily influenced. i'm so ashamed of my habit. i'm going to look 50 by the time i'm 30.
speaking of looking old. i have been going to the gym for an hour and a half, 5 times a week, for 2 months and there's been no progress since the first week i started.
i'm thick like a boar. and nothing i do changes it.
i've never been so depressed about myself in my entire life.
-
my period is late.
that probably explains why i'm so weepy today.
at least i know i'm not pregnant.
apparently nausea means pregnancy to the doctors here. i had to get tested on friday.
-
i miss christopher.
he's been gone for 3 hours. i'm pathetic.
and i want some guacamole
i also put an add in the base paper for our cats. i hope somebody wants them. i can't leave them.