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last night i talked to my good friend. I was just thinking in my mind the whole time during our conversation how much we have grown and how beautiful it is. His brother is getting married and i was invited to come out. Im very excited for my friends. Im also excited for this new chapter of life that my friend is going to be experiencing as he prepares to get married.
Right now im studying for school and how unmotivated i am. I have so many things on my mind. My muse, work, school, and the in betweens. Im a very lazy person and sometimes ill just lay in my bed (when im not even tired) and close my eyes knowing that i have a mid-term the next day without even reading a single word. I like to lay in my bed and look out the window. Look at the clouds and the birds pass by while the breeze slowly rubs against my face.
this is not a complaint but its more of how i feel.
I dont want to be here. I dont want to live here. I want to be somewhere else. I want to meet new people, I want to make new experiences, I want to discover a part of myself. It sucks because i hate staying in the same place for a long time. I Like to be out or i like to be doing something. whether its watching a movie, looking at photos, Biting my nails i just have to be doing something. Its weird. I need to know what my priorities are and pay more attention to them. Tonight i want to study till three. I also dont have money. I dont have two of my books for college and i dont feel organized. i just want to scatter my pencils and paper on the floor and put it back together ....but neatly.
I just want it to be august (2008) already.
Im sure the month is just as excited as i am.
Right now im studying for school and how unmotivated i am. I have so many things on my mind. My muse, work, school, and the in betweens. Im a very lazy person and sometimes ill just lay in my bed (when im not even tired) and close my eyes knowing that i have a mid-term the next day without even reading a single word. I like to lay in my bed and look out the window. Look at the clouds and the birds pass by while the breeze slowly rubs against my face.
this is not a complaint but its more of how i feel.
I dont want to be here. I dont want to live here. I want to be somewhere else. I want to meet new people, I want to make new experiences, I want to discover a part of myself. It sucks because i hate staying in the same place for a long time. I Like to be out or i like to be doing something. whether its watching a movie, looking at photos, Biting my nails i just have to be doing something. Its weird. I need to know what my priorities are and pay more attention to them. Tonight i want to study till three. I also dont have money. I dont have two of my books for college and i dont feel organized. i just want to scatter my pencils and paper on the floor and put it back together ....but neatly.
I just want it to be august (2008) already.
Im sure the month is just as excited as i am.