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[killxtheleaderx]

i kind of think i put myself in these positions
where im torn between
what i want to do
what i should do
and what my heart says
what is it that im supposed to follow
of course i could be thinking to much
do to the drinking and the fact ive been
so fucking depressed for the past who knows how long
i mean i spose im ok
but theirs only so much that ok will do
i wish it was this time two weeks ago
when hatred was all i felt
hatred and finally content with what i have
or actually the lack of
but for some reason
now all i do is second guess myself
who knows
damn me
and damn uncertainty