!!.u.g.h!!
when he's really meant to me i wish that he would be nicer to justify my feelings for him..when he's nice i wish that he was mean so that it might cause me to not like him anymore. and then i see him..and it hurts...but as much as it hurts we can sit there and laugh..and be normal..and comfortable and not weird..but i feel so out of place..yet i feel like i don't have to pretend infront of him. and that's why i fall so hard..becuz he makes me feel opposite things at the same time and i love it. he'll never go away..but maybe i will