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...i am good at being mean to him. it's so easy. i probably hurt him more than i know, but for me it is some type of sick therapy. in hurting him, i forget how much i hurt. and while the "comfort" is only temporary, at least there is some window of relief. i only wish to be happy. i don't necessarily care the circumstances, as long as i am happy in them. i wait for that day, however impatiently...