suck suck suck
why can't i just be told the truth, for once?
why can't someone really, truly love me, for me, and actually mean it?
... and not leave me once they find someone better, after telling me i'm the best?
how could you just completely cut me out of your life and refuse to give me any kind of reason?
i know it was because of me. you could have just told me. it would have hurt so much less.
i just want to be told the truth. i just want to be loved. i don't want to be hurt anymore. :[
but time after time again, i've been shown that it can never happen because there are three people in my life that i thought would always love me and respect me and be honest with me who have proven to me that they never really respected me as a person nor the friendship we had nor the love that i have for them. i would have done anything for these three, but apparently they wouldn't do anything for me. one moved away, one completely cut my out of their life without reason, and will not speak to me let alone tell me why, the other flat out lied to me and says wonderful things to me when it was realized i might no longer be there and my hospitality and love and kindness may disappear making it unable to be taken advantage of.
there is one other i thought i had lost. but this one has proven that there is still love for me. this one still cares and is honest with me and respects me. this one has always been there for me, and always will be, unlike the others. the others broke my heart, and i thought this one might have too, but it was proven that will never happen. this one will never do that to me. that is why i have always loved this one the most, and i always will.
thank you, libbykins.<3 happy birthday. i love you, and i always will. you will always be a huge part of my life. i would like you to come back into my life, because i need you more than ever right meow. i love you!<33
why can't someone really, truly love me, for me, and actually mean it?
... and not leave me once they find someone better, after telling me i'm the best?
how could you just completely cut me out of your life and refuse to give me any kind of reason?
i know it was because of me. you could have just told me. it would have hurt so much less.
i just want to be told the truth. i just want to be loved. i don't want to be hurt anymore. :[
but time after time again, i've been shown that it can never happen because there are three people in my life that i thought would always love me and respect me and be honest with me who have proven to me that they never really respected me as a person nor the friendship we had nor the love that i have for them. i would have done anything for these three, but apparently they wouldn't do anything for me. one moved away, one completely cut my out of their life without reason, and will not speak to me let alone tell me why, the other flat out lied to me and says wonderful things to me when it was realized i might no longer be there and my hospitality and love and kindness may disappear making it unable to be taken advantage of.
there is one other i thought i had lost. but this one has proven that there is still love for me. this one still cares and is honest with me and respects me. this one has always been there for me, and always will be, unlike the others. the others broke my heart, and i thought this one might have too, but it was proven that will never happen. this one will never do that to me. that is why i have always loved this one the most, and i always will.
thank you, libbykins.<3 happy birthday. i love you, and i always will. you will always be a huge part of my life. i would like you to come back into my life, because i need you more than ever right meow. i love you!<33