Fucked Up Days
this fucked up days are coming back ... i feel all stupid and ignorant ... i could be just tired but i dont know ... everything is okay with my life ... just feel so fucken pathetic ... honestly i can compare my happiness to a cup of glass ... everyones glass (jessica's, carols, kt, bernie, eric ... etc) it fills to the top ... thats bliss, happyness ... love ... whatever ... my fucken glass just fills half way ... wtf!!! i was thinking of going back on medication, but i dont think i want to ... cause i relly on it to much ... so i can feel like shit for the rest of my life or do something ... i bearly feel like i have my own friends, everyone is out enjoying them selfs and i'm at home ... doing nothing ... wtf!!!! i'm a adult i need to go have fun and do stuff not work ... then home ... shit .. sleep ... whatever .... same fucken thing all day ... i stay quiet to much ... no one knows how i feel .... cause they all assume is bullshit ... and me ... disliike bernie ... no waist of fuckne time ... i wanted to fix what was broken and become friends but if he wants to be a dick ... then fuck HIM!!!! he can go screw himself ... assholes ....