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[killthecheezit]

i've been feeling so empty lately... like somthing isn't right with me... ian and i fight... alot... and i don't like it. it's not normal. sometimes i think we'd be better off not being together... then i think about how much i love him and tell myself that i'll just have to deall with it. i don't know. i don't think he and i will last too much longer if we keep this shit up. i can only take so much of him swearing at me and getting mad at everything that i do... i don't deserve to be treated the way that he treats me sometimes. he says that he's sorry and it wont happen again but it always does.... and i really feel like my feelings for him have changed. i mean like right now i feel so distant from him.. but other times like last night it feels normal. yanno?

i don't know what to do... i'm not happy :'( but i want to be so bad... maybe if i just pretend i'll start to believe it? Maybe he needs to read this, and we need to reach a decision together.... coz right now this isn't working for me