Sometimes
Sometimes people really piss me off.
I want to yell and shout and threaten and be mean and scary so I can get what I want.
But It is rare that I do. I have too much patience. Sometimes this is a good thing, and sometimes I think it will be my downfall.
Sometimes I feel like there is no love.
There are people I love and care for very much, but only rarely do I feel it is reciprocated. And I wonder why I bother to care. I tell myself I don't care. But as soon as there is hurt or need or want, I come running.
Sometimes I worry that I will never have the time and/or money to do and see and learn all the things that I want before I get too old.
Sometimes I sit and contemplate these things and wonder how I can change them.
No solid ideas, yet.
I want to yell and shout and threaten and be mean and scary so I can get what I want.
But It is rare that I do. I have too much patience. Sometimes this is a good thing, and sometimes I think it will be my downfall.
Sometimes I feel like there is no love.
There are people I love and care for very much, but only rarely do I feel it is reciprocated. And I wonder why I bother to care. I tell myself I don't care. But as soon as there is hurt or need or want, I come running.
Sometimes I worry that I will never have the time and/or money to do and see and learn all the things that I want before I get too old.
Sometimes I sit and contemplate these things and wonder how I can change them.
No solid ideas, yet.