blah's and ha's
It seems as though no matter what positive is happening in my life, the negative thoughts will always remain inside my head.
I hate mothers day. I hate fathers day. I will be forever grateful for my grandparents coming in and saving the day, I will be forever catty about the fact that it took until I contacted them and at the age of 12 that it actually happened. I will be sad the day my mother actually passes on the another life, however I hate that she attempts to contact me. (Weak attempts, mind you) I will forever support the fact that drug addicts know not what they do, and that it is a disease; however I will always hold it against my mother than she chose drugs over my brothers and I. I will forever insist I don't need a shoulder to cry on but be sad when no one is there with a shoulder to lean on.
Something is wrong with me. I can admit it and recognize it, however I choose to do nothing about it. It isn't the fear of admitting it that is holding me back. What am I scared of? Being human?
Sidenote,
The cruise was a pretty magnificent time. Finally got to meet Kid Rock but after the initial contact happened I wasn't that concerned with him for the rest of the time. I will forever have mad love for the guy though. I am half the person I am because of his music. I admire all he is doing for the city of Detroit and/or Michigan. He is such a down to earth, REAL dude. Thank "God" for musicians like him. To use your fame to benefit others is something I will always look up to and admire. I got to meet some other artists, too. Everyone was so grateful and appreciative and just....well, cool. Ty Stone was fucking incredible and I will now forever be a fan. Uncle Kracker was never a favorite of mine, however seeing him live numerous times on the ship changed that. His band is absolutely amazing, he has some magnificent talent backing him up that could most definitely one day outshine him. Cool ass dudes. Rehab was fun and entertaining. Paradime is the man. I had the absolute time of my life aside from getting sun poisoning. I will definitely be in attendance next year, one way or another. I want to start counting down the days til May 3rd right now! (about 355....lol)
HOEDOWN THIS WEEKEND! Always a good time, aside from the fights that I can never seem to avoid. I will try my darnedest to avoid them at all costs this year. I can't afford to get in any trouble and I am actually attempting to "grow up" so to speak. Anyways, Uncle Kracker is headlining Saturday night so I am looking forward to seeing him, well his band, play again. Also, Justin Moore Friday evening should be fun....he's also incredible. Ty Stone after party Saturday night at St. Andrews (one of my favorite places in Detroit) will be awesome, I am sure. Looking forward to seeing him again, hopefully it's a packed house.