that fucking sucked
so today i woke up and had to get ready for the wake.i really thought i wasnt going to cry.about 15 into it i cried cuz i looked at the casket and there was sophie not yelling for me to get her a cold coke and fix her papers.i was sniffling really loud and was embarrassed.i left at like 5:30 cuz lindsay had to go to karate.i went home and this is where i am now.lindsay didnt cry at all i dont know how she does it.m so out of it that i dunno if im gonna go tomorrow.maybe i will.i prolly wont.grr i feel shitty.