not again
i havent been in school for two days cuz of doctor appointments and shit.good thing is that im losing weight(i lost 12 pounds)bad part is my liver might be failing.meh.i thought things were going ok i guess not.everyone around me is doing ok and i thought i was too.then he found someone else and doesnt call.whatever im thru with guys.and no that doesnt mean im going to girls im going to nothing.my moms not doing great either they found a tumor on her spine and right leg.i hope they can fix that.on the upside money is doing great.figures.i cut and redyed my hair it looks ok.laurens looks pimp and lindsays is sweet.school is gonna suck cuz i gotta catch up.tomorrow is ricks concert thingie and i want to go.on saturday is that static lulabye i dont know how to spell and we dont have a ride.my moms busy.i want a fish.im tired and depressed.and mad.i want to do something.something like we used to.in the summer.i know we wont do anything though.i hate being a teenager.never able to do anything unless we walk.i feel like shit cuz my energy is down.stupid diseases.why cant i be normal?thats all i ever wanted.my dad lost my report card.all he remembers is that i had one F and that was in algebra.what a surprise.i just want one nite of fun,dear god just give me one nite of pure happiness not thinking of anything just fun.i want lauren to have that too.too much going on over there and i know thats gotta suck.as for tori i dont give a flying fuck.shes always been ify with me i feel i cant fully trust her.whatever just me being weird?