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lately i feel like i just don't quite fit in anywhere. i go to parties and while i'm there i see people i know but i just don't feel like i belong..i go to church and once again i love it it's always so uplifting and it brings a smile to my face to hear the word of God, but i just don't feel like i belong..then there's work and it's like the only place where i don't feel like i'm the 'odd one out' i dunno how to explain what i'm feeling. eek. so i went out with ian twice and it was fun but he wanted a 'sexual' relationship and i'm just not down with that so i told him no & we stopped talking. right now im just so tired of being single. i want..rephrase..need someone to be dependent on someone to be dependent on me. you know? haha i'm talking to my journal, amazing. i just don't have friends i just don't have a social life. eep. there's only one person that can fix this and i'm seriously trying with all my heart to hand my life over to him but it's just soooo hard. eep. ack i'm offffffff. i have work at 430 and i'm just really bumming today. i worked lunch with bobby today..we had a really good conversation for like an hour..yup. anyway. byee.