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okay wow over two months since i've written in this. um. let's see. since the last post i've gotten a second job, macaroni grill. i love it. i've made so many friends :]. um. i'm still head over hills for chris, &frankly i don't know why. he hurt me. he made me feel like i was of less importance than so many people. it went..1. his mom.. 2. andra.. 3. ashley.. 4. amanda.. 5. me..&that hurts. we would've been amazing. we were amazing for those few months. now i hate how i can't even watch certain movies or listen to certain songs cuz they bring back memories. "..thinking of the right words to say.." brings back a memory of him leaving at 2 in the morning..he was blasting it as he was driving away looking back at me. :[ i wanna hate him so bad. gr. whatever.
there's this guy victor. vince's brother. he's 23. amazing. i die from laughter when we hang out. only thing is, he has a girlfriend [of course]. last night me &him went bowling. ha. fun stuff. gah i'm crushing big tim.
i need to go back to church. it's been, at least, a month.
my best friend is gone again. :[ three months this time around.
that should be a little of an update. more to come later.